I have been feeling so alone within my
Church walls. I have reached out to several sisters in Christ I have there, even those in the same season of life as me (young kids/ in there late twenties, early thirty’s) but I just feel as though I’m a burden. I am mostly met with no replys to text messages where I’ve reached out.. The lord has been working in me to teach me to esteem others higher than myself. And I truly feel I have been doing that. I have offered to keep the pastors wife’s kids so they can go out on a date, always ask if they need anything if they’re ill, have dropped off supplies when they have Covid, went over to their new home and literally folded their clothes for them. I know we don’t do good works to get glory from men.. or even a Thankyou. I just want a friend! I don’t feel like I’m asking for much.
I have lived in this area around 8 years since I got married and have been attending this church all this time. It breaks my heart because I love so many people there.. I just don’t feel like I have “that person” to talk to, to be an encourager for and be encouraged by. I feel as though I forgive and forgive again.. I know it’s not about me..
I have felt so alone the past few years. I am also estranged from many family members.. and have made several attempts to reach out to some family so we can make plans or get to know one another.. anything.
I just feel as though everyone has that person that they can tell anything, vent to, rejoice with and mourn with. I am surrounded by people and I feel like I have nobody.
It’s beginning to affect me internally where I feel as though there is something wrong with me or something that prevents people from wanting to be around me.
What can I do
Good day . the Lord Jesus said John 15:9(KJV) As the Father hath loved me, so have I loved you: continue ye in my love. To love one another . you are not alone sheep . you are a part of a flock . the word of God says
Luke 15:4-6(KJV) What man of you, having an hundred sheep, if he lose one of them, doth not leave the ninety and nine in the wilderness, and go after that which is lost, until he find it?
And when he hath found it, he layeth it on his shoulders, rejoicing.
And when he cometh home, he calleth together his friends and neighbours, saying unto them, Rejoice with me; for I have found my sheep which was lost.
God himself has laid you on his shoulder and rejoicing as he returns you to his flock . be a witness and give thanks in this season .