Yeah, growing up, I was always terrified of my dad but only because of the trauma that took place when I was 5 years old when he nearly beat my mom to death. (Just got back from a psyche evaluation, so it’s fresh on my mind) Now that I’m more mature and assertive, I tell my dad exactly what I am thinking. If my dad tries to treat me poorly, the dynamic between us, end up better for the both of us when I assert my thoughts, instead of taking the negative remarks.
Life here is short and we only got so much time. Spending time with him, instead of him buying me gifts for my loves, trumps all.
I pray one day that my dad will choose to follow Jesus or at least chose to believe in Him, right before he passes, like a movie.
I don’t know if you ever had a psyche evaluation before but the psychologist really gets into your head (and sometimes starts to tell you what you who you are, even though that isn’t who you are) It’s some scary stuff…glad it’s over though.
Had a good cry, that’s for sure.