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I am very sorry for your circumstances

. Know that u r not alone , many people , Christian and none , suffer daily for many years . God is always with u

. I believe that our sufferings r a test of our faith . I have been in pain for 20 years , not like yours but still enough to seriously alter the course of my life . No children because I couldn't look after them , no decent job and eventually no job at all . No social life , no holidays and also ,no confidence , self esteem or sense of self worth . Being looked down on by family and friends etc . When u r ill or disabled u learn a lot about human nature and most of it isn't pleasant .
The only , only thing that has got me through all this is the love and mercy of God . Knowing that He sees me and loves means that I am His forever . These precious Truths r what get me out of bed every day with a smile on my face . Nothing else . Stay faithful and know He loves u sooo very very much

. U shall c God's Kingdom

u shall b a part of it . No pain no suffering just awesome beauty , peace and love for ever . Before I became ill , my childhood was horrendous also , but God got me through that too

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