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enril

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You're afraid of causing some kind of damage?

Forgive me for not knowing these things, but I don't know if the types of protective garments or gear for sports could be worn on a daily basis?

I'm not sure what you think bras do? They're just an added layer of clothing.

Do you have a trusted pastor, male counselor, or confidant you could talk to about this?
no i am emotionally scarred.

just clothing. long sleeves. all the time.

well, i may be a bit misconcieved.

I have been texting my youth pastor.
 

seoulsearch

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yeah. as i posted earlier, 30% of commited christian teens struggle with porn.

yeah. I love your posts. they really have made me think.
I am doing some great and not so great things. my life is a mess right now.
my mind is a mess right now.
NF is a light to me.
I have a good friend. she is helping me. simply being here. talking to me.
I read. Do you Read?
I am mostly staying clear of bad things.
Thanks very much. :) I have been told all my life that I overthink things, but I'd like to "think" I've put it to some use. :)

Fellow over-thinkers seem to understand and appreciate the outlet to share their thoughts.

I'm sorry you have so much going on in life right now. I understand. We're all in one mess or another. I do read, but it's mostly articles now or I listen to videos and podcasts about things I'm interested in.

What do you like to read?

Yes, I stay away from fiction because it seems everything having to do with stories has something questionable thrown in, no matter how tame the story might seem.
 

seoulsearch

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no i am emotionally scarred.

just clothing. long sleeves. all the time.

well, i may be a bit misconcieved.

I have been texting my youth pastor.
So the clothing acts as a cover for your emotions? ❤️I'm very sorry.

I'm so glad you're texting your youth pastor -- I'm praying he can help.
 

enril

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Thanks very much. :) I have been told all my life that I overthink things, but I'd like to "think" I've put it to some use. :)

Fellow over-thinkers seem to understand and appreciate the outlet to share their thoughts.

I'm sorry you have so much going on in life right now. I understand. We're all in one mess or another. I do read, but it's mostly articles now or I listen to videos and podcasts about things I'm interested in.

What do you like to read?

Yes, I stay away from fiction because it seems everything having to do with stories has something questionable thrown in, no matter how tame the story might seem.
I do over think a lot.
i read mostly throw away novels, a few god things like chesterton and lewis,
classics like the circle, dune, and the ultimate series, the stormlight archve(65-75 hrs per)

it all does. even kids movies, like, off the top of my head, ice age. has a bit of weird stuff.
 

enril

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So the clothing acts as a cover for your emotions? ❤️I'm very sorry.

I'm so glad you're texting your youth pastor -- I'm praying he can help.
no, as a result of emotions. it covers me. i am afraid of showing myself physcally.
 

enril

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i have not read or watched anything in a long long time that hadno sexual refrences.
and of course, every author has to put something in there.
 

enril

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So the clothing acts as a cover for your emotions? ❤️I'm very sorry.

I'm so glad you're texting your youth pastor -- I'm praying he can help.
and it is really hard bc my parents know nothing about any of my night life for the last 3 years.
no one i know does either, except 4 friends (incidentally my only friends)
 

enril

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Anytime! I'm sorry mere words on a screen doesn't help much, but keep posting and hanging out with us if it helps. 🙂
of course! it does a lot. now i should really get to bed. should have 3 hours ago, at 1, but, it was time well spent.
 

seoulsearch

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of course! it does a lot. now i should really get to bed. should have 3 hours ago, at 1, but, it was time well spent.
Hope you get a good sleep and we'll see you when you get back! 🎉
 

enril

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Hope you get a good sleep and we'll see you when you get back! 🎉
hope i sleep well.
well, im insomniac, I got 12 hours of sleep in one day already this month. so ill be fine. i can and do need barely any sleep. for a while i ran on 2 hours per day. in the dark days. I can go all day without food or water if i am careful. i can sleep anytime, anywhere, but at night i am too afraid of what might show up while im dreaming.
 

seantspence

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yeah. as i posted earlier, 30% of commited christian teens struggle with porn.

yeah. I love your posts. they really have made me think.
I am doing some great and not so great things. my life is a mess right now.
my mind is a mess right now.
NF is a light to me.
I have a good friend. she is helping me. simply being here. talking to me.
I read. Do you Read?
I am mostly staying clear of bad things.
One app that I discovered that helped me a lot is Covenant Eyes. It monitors all of your devices. So all you need is an accountability partner. If you look at any nudity or something suspicious, it will notify your accountability partner. It truly keeps you from wanting to give into pornography. I say this as someone who has struggled with pornography for about a decade
 

enril

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One app that I discovered that helped me a lot is Covenant Eyes. It monitors all of your devices. So all you need is an accountability partner. If you look at any nudity or something suspicious, it will notify your accountability partner. It truly keeps you from wanting to give into pornography. I say this as someone who has struggled with pornography for about a decade
but having the problem of non-free. having no form of digital cash.
 

seantspence

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but having the problem of non-free. having no form of digital cash.
I think I have another user account you can be apart of. Free of charge. I have ten total slots and I’m the only one using the main account.

All I think I would need is an email address and I can send you the link. No problem. You can be on there as long as I continue to pay the monthly fee, which I don’t plan to ever stop paying.
 

enril

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isaacnighte@gmail.com.
my old email i use for things. I dont even know where it came from. it is in all kinds of bad sites, thankfully i cant go back there anymore. the same email i use for everything online though.
also does being on linux pose problems at all?
 

seantspence

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isaacnighte@gmail.com.
my old email i use for things. I dont even know where it came from. it is in all kinds of bad sites, thankfully i cant go back there anymore. the same email i use for everything online though.
also does being on linux pose problems at all?
I’m not sure if Linux is available but when you get the email you can check it all out and see if you can put it on any device
 

seantspence

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It’s actually asking a bunch of other questions such as the username you want m, the password, your phone number and other stuff. Mind if I email you and you can tell me that information for that so I can fill that out. Also if you don’t feel comfortable with this you do not have to go through with this.

I understand there are tons of scammers online who try and get people information this way. So by all means, you don’t have to. I’m just trying to help out because I have 9 user accounts that aren’t filled out on my main account with Covenant Eyes and Covenant eyes is like the best.
 

enril

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It’s actually asking a bunch of other questions such as the username you want m, the password, your phone number and other stuff. Mind if I email you and you can tell me that information for that so I can fill that out. Also if you don’t feel comfortable with this you do not have to go through with this.

I understand there are tons of scammers online who try and get people information this way. So by all means, you don’t have to. I’m just trying to help out because I have 9 user accounts that aren’t filled out on my main account with Covenant Eyes and Covenant eyes is like the best.
ok. well, what would I lose if I lost my main account? I literally used it for porn and now for texting one friend. oh and this.