I have pain that limits my job and life in my ankle. An eye problem. I live at home. I'm nearly broke monetarily. I am broke spiritually and mentally and emotionally in regards to I do not function properly anymore. I do not know how to be a person or what a person is supposed to be or do. I never have fitted in anywhere due to being from another nation or my accent. God has not helped with hardly any prayer I ever made. Only general insignificant ones like giving information on what the star of David was and if it was evil etc (it was recorded online as a solar eclipse with triangles in yellow flickering around the moon on indian TV-news etc). I am often angry at God for not doing anything "significant" and being "unhelpful".
I am also broken after I feel God left me fall into false teachings as I asked Him not to ever allow this as I prayed this often. I then ended up believing false teachings for about a year until new information came from another source, but the damage was done. The lack of confidence I have in God delivering anything "significant" now is too much to get over the "let-down" of being allowed to fall in the first place after the prayers never to do so. And to not be misled and be 100% clear without confusion delusion or error. So I covered all "bases" I thought. Apparently not or God simply did not deliver for no "known" reason.
I'm getting past the age of caring soon. The life is nearly over and dead due to the circumstances, and I know not what things God has as "treasures in heaven" because He does not tell us what they are. So I do not know if it is merely living like a sheep for eternity with no "life" only "eternal existance". Living is living, not existing (I never signed up to be a "bhudist monk", bible promises seemed more than this).
So, I am still waiting for a Job, love, purpose as I have not recieved resources to evangelise that I have asked for for years and seem "blocked" at every turn in every effort, as if God is forcing me to be akin to a feelingless "monk" doing "nothing", living "nothing". So this is my experience. I had more hope, and was a better more directional person before I was a christian. I could at least dream of a potential future, even if it would never happen, I did not know it would never happen, there was always hope. There was always exciting events or fun. Christian life is dull and empty unless you live in america with "happy clappy rich churches". it's an alone depressing hard life unless you become content with nothing, content with doing nothing, and content with going nowhere like a "detached meditating monk" etc.
I don't think I have any help for anyone except a leaflet to evangelise with, because if they ask me the benefits of being a christian, all I can say is, "you don't burn in fire for eternity, that's your lot, we do not know any more than that". No other person / teacher has a better answer for me so far.