Hi, Shoshie, I remember you and sorry to hear your circumstances. A fantastic Bible study I had lately was about, 'What to do in the midst of a trial'. I learned so much as I has a scary ordeal with my little male dog who got stomped on by his two energetic bigger sisters. He was yelping and long week story short, I prayed God's healing word over him and believed in God's goodness. We took him to Vet's and he's at 95% restored today!
In one translation of the Bible, it says to be happy in trials as it strengthens -perfects our faith. I know how hard it seems in the midst of hardship, but find God's promises that relate to you and put your hope in Him. He won't fail you IF you are in faith instead of fear. Expect miracles and I pray to God that the Holy Spirit lifts you up and gives you strength to do what you need to do, as unto the Lord, IJNA🙏🌹🙌