I learned about repentance I feel the most through this which I found to be the true “sinners prayer “
notice where this is coming from within David and a deep regret a deep sorrow and seperation because he is recognizing his sinfulness before God this is truly David’s heart broken and pores out note how David is actually focusing on how
God can change him so that he can do better and he isn’t just swearing he’s going to never sin again he recognizes he’s a sinner through and through then he pleads for change from the heart
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Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: According unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions.
Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, And
cleanse me from my sin. ( notice he’s counting on God to fix him he’s exalting Gods mercy )
For
I acknowledge my transgressions: And my sin is ever before me. Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight
he’s acknolwedgong tbat he committed adultery and had a man killed after impregnating his wife )
That thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest.
Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; And in sin did my mother conceive me. Behold,
thou desirest truth in the inward parts: And in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom.( again back to how God will do to save him )
Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: Wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow. Make me to hear joy and gladness; That the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice.
Hide thy face from my sins, And blot out all mine iniquities. Create in me a clean heart, O God; And renew a right spirit within me. Cast me not away from thy presence; ( all pleas to God for him to move on David’s behalf ) And take not thy holy spirit from me.
Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; And
uphold me with thy free spirit.
Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; And sinners shall be converted unto thee.
Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, thou God of my salvation: And my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness. For thou desirest not sacrifice; else would I give it: Thou delightest not in burnt offering.
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: A broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.”
Psalm 51:1-14, 16-17 KJV
My point is repentance isn’t just to say I’m never gonna do that sin again , or even try our best to never sin again repentance is why David was pouring his heart out desperately to God after he realized what he had done and it really sunk in
Repentance comes from the heart and it is focused most on what God is able to do to save them he can change the things that aren’t right in us he can restore our spirit he can teach us righteousness in the inward parts , that he is merciful to those he loves repentance comes most directly from. Beginning to know
Jesus seeing how he treated sinners and how he treated the self righteous
At some point I had an idea that God would never associate with eat with fellowship with or care for struggling sinners
and then I met Jesus the lord who gives repentance to believers of the truth through thier softened hearts rather than repentance being something I’m gonna do for myself it’s something Jesus is going to teach me if I follow him and it will be actually written on my heart