Beautiful! This is amazing . . . someone that know what questions to ask.
Yes sir. The first 48 years of my life I believed I was a saved Christian, based upon my sense of free will (or so I believed). It wasn't until I had the most unbelievable and physically Powerful experience. As I was in the Presence of God as much as could be allowed, I later realized what happened to me, which is that I received both the Circumcision of Christ and the Indwelling Holy Spirit. I felt the Power that parted the Red Sea, and that is something that no human can reject or deny (should it happen to them).
I have received Salvation not by my choice, but because the Lord found me in a particular geographical location, and Saved me right there. After receiving this shocking gift, I realized that I had never really believed, for my many decades of study were blocked by the Veil and I couldn't possibly have understood the thousands of dollars of materials I spent my money on. Sermons, CDs, dictionaries, thesauruses, commentaries, on and on . . . but after that Spiritual experience, my entire Life changed, for I was purchased and then owned by Christ, held captive by Him with the express Purpose of spreading His Holy Message, of which I actively do each day. I have no choice, for I am compelled to believe and act.
When a person experiences the Circumcision of Christ and the Indwellilng Holy Spirit, rejecting Him is an impossibility. And for those who have not received the Circumcision of Christ nor the Powerful and Indwelling Holy Spirit, you'll will have to Trust that these things are true. And if not, I completely understand. No, cannot reject Christ. My Love only grows stronger and stronger and I become more and more focused in making Him the utmost important part of this Life given to me.
Sorry, but I could write a book on this one subject alone.