I REGRET WATCHING PORN I'M IN CRISIS HELP

[katheren]

Hi, I'm 18 years old. I will begin by saying that throughout my teenage and puberty, sexuality was a subject that interested me very little. While guys and girls in my class talked about masturbation and watching pornography, I was never interested and never did until this year. During this second year of quarantine I didn't have much to do until I was curious about masturbation, I tried to do very little (less than 10 times in my entire life) without disgusting thoughts or porn, I was just trying to test the feeling. After that time I was interested in the matter of porn, I was watching gay porn for two months (I am heterosexual, and I respect the female body, I was disgusted to see intimate affairs of couples of the same orientation; while naked men I've always seen, for example in the gym, for that reason it never caused me sexual abhorrence), I saw little but I saw it, now I am very overwhelmed and sorry, even though it was not porn as it is, I explored fetishes where there wasn't always intimate nudity (like feet fetish), but they were still on porn pages. I didn't jerk off looking at it either (I have my values). But I saw it. A couple of days ago I had a crisis thinking about what my parents would think about their son? The one who seemed and was the most "holy" in school without alcohol or drugs, or anything sexual. I repeat, despite the fact that I got a bit hard during gay porn (and didn't feel comfortable), I have never wanted to have sex with a man, I want to get married and start a family later. What I need is help, I need to know if God will forgive me for this stupid thing I did, should I teel my parents (I love and trust them too much). I answer any questions. Thank you for reading! Blessings.

i know how you feel i have made the same misteak but not the of watching of the same s*x so yeah a teenage girl speaking here i you are not alone if you dont mind if i pray that GOD wouid deliver you from that ?

 

[Bingo]

"It is disturbing, disrespectful and not sound counselling to approach an individual
that may be struggling with an addiction or any problem issue......to question them on their faith
or 'preaching' ...most often will turn them off and shut down any positive outcome...believe it.
Rarely if ever, will this be a correct approach.
The past two decades, I have shared with addicts, homeless, those incarcerated, and family abuse
and family issues, many walks of life. And, without gaining their TRUST, CONFIDENCE, and RESPECT,
your changes of connecting will most likely be in vain.

Let us be realistic, troubled lives are not to be taken lightly, and attempting to impress with Divine words,
often displays a boastful, arrogant and contemptuous attitude of more harm than good.
A life is a precious gift...handle with care...breakable parts may be repaired."

 

[Grizz44]

In before well meaning people tell you to just pray and those feelings will go away

 

[timemeddler]

repent, stop ask forgiveness, this one can be a hard one one it takes hold.

 

[shittim]

I have been taught the "ask, seek and knock" , was "ask and keep asking", adding in the constant "staying in Him" He desires for us.
I know I like to keep a picture of Him before me, here and in the picture frame of my mind, it is a great help, then there is no room for the eternal dork.
best wishes

 

[TimothyB]

That you mourn the sin is repentance, I am proud of you, Jesus is too.

Amen

 

[WMarkB]

In before well meaning people tell you to just pray and those feelings will go away

Sadly it’s not that simple.

 

[Bellu]

Hi, I'm 18 years old. I will begin by saying that throughout my teenage and puberty, sexuality was a subject that interested me very little. While guys and girls in my class talked about masturbation and watching pornography, I was never interested and never did until this year. During this second year of quarantine I didn't have much to do until I was curious about masturbation, I tried to do very little (less than 10 times in my entire life) without disgusting thoughts or porn, I was just trying to test the feeling. After that time I was interested in the matter of porn, I was watching gay porn for two months (I am heterosexual, and I respect the female body, I was disgusted to see intimate affairs of couples of the same orientation; while naked men I've always seen, for example in the gym, for that reason it never caused me sexual abhorrence), I saw little but I saw it, now I am very overwhelmed and sorry, even though it was not porn as it is, I explored fetishes where there wasn't always intimate nudity (like feet fetish), but they were still on porn pages. I didn't jerk off looking at it either (I have my values). But I saw it. A couple of days ago I had a crisis thinking about what my parents would think about their son? The one who seemed and was the most "holy" in school without alcohol or drugs, or anything sexual. I repeat, despite the fact that I got a bit hard during gay porn (and didn't feel comfortable), I have never wanted to have sex with a man, I want to get married and start a family later. What I need is help, I need to know if God will forgive me for this stupid thing I did, should I teel my parents (I love and trust them too much). I answer any questions. Thank you for reading! Blessings.

Hey,your okay Lucifer wins sometimes the important part is your parents and God forgive you,move on with your life

 

[aalligator45]

The devil wants you to keep watching porn, to keep masturbating, to keep committing sins of sexual immorality! For he knows very well you can't have a healthy relationship with your wife and your future marriage will be more likely to break. The devil wants to break apart your future marriage, because the devil always wants to destroy what god has made. Stop the sexual immorality and plunge yourself into Jesus! Don't be like people at the pool who just sit on the ledge and wiggle their toes in the pool! Jump headfirst in! (Don't jump in headfirst in an actual pool you will hit your head.)

It is much easier to be tempted when your flesh is stronger than your spirit! Read the word of God, pray every day, whenever you get the chance to! Put on all the armor of God! For there is no place in heaven for idolaters, and people who practice sexual immorality. When you consume the word of god, when you fil your life up with godly things, you will be too full to consume what the devil is tempting you with. I have found that when I haven't spent time in with god, I sin more. But we should not sin anymore, because Jesus did not die on the cross, was beaten, mocked, and became a servant on this dark earth just for us to continue sinning and plunge into the deep, black pool of sin.

And most definitely tell your parents! Sin loves to hide in darkness, but light always overtakes darkness! Plus your parents can help you overcome this. They can also pray for you. Also tell your pastor, tell your friends and family to pray for you. Many Christians underestimate the power of prayer. When a father's children cry out, do not you think the father responds? He does! People on this earth, evil people, know how to (give gifts) take care of their children, what more will your father in heaven do for you!

I hope you have a wonderful day, and be blessed!

 

[ThaddeusFields]

I totally get it, exploring your sexuality can be a confusing journey. Don't beat yourself up over it, my friend. We all have different experiences and curiosities. As for God's forgiveness, that's a personal belief, but remember that forgiveness is often a part of many religious teachings. As for telling your parents, that's entirely up to you. If you feel comfortable and trust them, it might be worth having an open and honest conversation. Just remember, it's your journey and your choices.

 

[CS1]

I totally get it, exploring your sexuality can be a confusing journey. Don't beat yourself up over it, my friend. We all have different experiences and curiosities. As for God's forgiveness, that's a personal belief, but remember that forgiveness is often a part of many religious teachings. As for telling your parents, that's entirely up to you. If you feel comfortable and trust them, it might be worth having an open and honest conversation. Just remember, it's your journey and your choices.

Walk not in the council of the ungodly. our job is not to explore but to obey the word of God. Sex is in the context God ordained it to be. Sin is not a curiosity. Yes, God forgives the sin of one who is repented yet, God is not mocked. We must flee sexual immorality and youthful lust, the word of God says.

 

[HealthAndHappiness]

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[BrianParsons]

Hi, I'm 18 years old. I will begin by saying that throughout my teenage and puberty, sexuality was a subject that interested me very little. While guys and girls in my class talked about masturbation and watching pornography, I was never interested and never did until this year. During this second year of quarantine I didn't have much to do until I was curious about masturbation, I tried to do very little (less than 10 times in my entire life) without disgusting thoughts or porn, I was just trying to test the feeling. After that time I was interested in the matter of porn, I was watching gay porn for two months (I am heterosexual, and I respect the female body, I was disgusted to see intimate affairs of couples of the same orientation; while naked men I've always seen, for example in the gym, for that reason it never caused me sexual abhorrence), I saw little but I saw it, now I am very overwhelmed and sorry, even though it was not porn as it is, I explored fetishes where there wasn't always intimate nudity (like feet fetish), but they were still on porn pages. I didn't jerk off looking at it either (I have my values). But I saw it. A couple of days ago I had a crisis thinking about what my parents would think about their son? The one who seemed and was the most "holy" in school without alcohol or drugs, or anything sexual. I repeat, despite the fact that I got a bit hard during gay porn (and didn't feel comfortable), I have never wanted to have sex with a man, I want to get married and start a family later. What I need is help, I need to know if God will forgive me for this stupid thing I did, should I teel my parents (I love and trust them too much). I answer any questions. Thank you for reading! Blessings.

Thank you for your bravery. It is not easy to openly speak of this subject.
First, I would like to let you know that you are not the first, nor will you be the last to experience such things. Satan will use anything and everything to lead us away from God.
"Idle hands are the devil's workshop."
The Bible is clear about protecting our eyes. What we see we cannot unsee. It remains with us forever. Porn has damaged the hearts of many. It portrays FAKE erotic passion and makes it desirable. Regardless of whether or not you are naturally aroused by such activity, porn damages our sensitivities and will erode our natural sexualy impulses. Those who watch porn often find real sexual encounters meaningless or passionless. They must visualize the porn that have witnessed to enjoy the act of sex, and their is nothing more heinous than to find that you ate unable to enjoy sex with your spouse without having to think of other sexual encounters in order to get excited.

As to whether you should tell your parents...this depends on your relationship with them. You have not sinned against them. Your sin is against yourself and God. You are only answerable to God for your actions.
I would say that you need to confide in someone. Let them know your concerns and have them pray with you as you repent of this and flee this evil. All have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God, but His grace is sufficient for you and is given in abundance if you will turn to Him. Our brothers and sisters in Christ can help us. They can help hold us accountable so that we do not fall into sinful acts again. My wife is my accountability partner. I tell her all my sin and sinful desires. I tell God first and her second. She prays with me and I with her. And together we help each other turn to God and flee the devil and his ways.

I pray this helps. May the Lord be with you and guide your steps. Proverbs 3:5-7

 

[HoneyBee]

Hi, I'm 18 years old. I will begin by saying that throughout my teenage and puberty, sexuality was a subject that interested me very little. While guys and girls in my class talked about masturbation and watching pornography, I was never interested and never did until this year. During this second year of quarantine I didn't have much to do until I was curious about masturbation, I tried to do very little (less than 10 times in my entire life) without disgusting thoughts or porn, I was just trying to test the feeling. After that time I was interested in the matter of porn, I was watching gay porn for two months (I am heterosexual, and I respect the female body, I was disgusted to see intimate affairs of couples of the same orientation; while naked men I've always seen, for example in the gym, for that reason it never caused me sexual abhorrence), I saw little but I saw it, now I am very overwhelmed and sorry, even though it was not porn as it is, I explored fetishes where there wasn't always intimate nudity (like feet fetish), but they were still on porn pages. I didn't jerk off looking at it either (I have my values). But I saw it. A couple of days ago I had a crisis thinking about what my parents would think about their son? The one who seemed and was the most "holy" in school without alcohol or drugs, or anything sexual. I repeat, despite the fact that I got a bit hard during gay porn (and didn't feel comfortable), I have never wanted to have sex with a man, I want to get married and start a family later. What I need is help, I need to know if God will forgive me for this stupid thing I did, should I teel my parents (I love and trust them too much). I answer any questions. Thank you for reading! Blessings.

I admire you! You got involved with things you should not have gotten involved with. True. BUT, I see absolutely the correct response in you and in the way you responded to it: guilt, shame and sorrow are hard on us. However, they are great teachers and your response to them is admirable. We absolutely can not make those feelings go away and you dealt with them in an admirable way. You recognize it was wrong; you repent; you resolve never to do it again. It takes guts to face it and not to hide those things away deep inside. That would just cause these things to fester and continue to hurt you. You wonder if you should confess it to your parents and fear how they may react to you and fear it would cause them to view you differently. I am pretty sure they had those types of times in their lives too and if so, they may know exactly how you are feeling. The plain truth of it is: they can not absolve you and take away the hurt. However, God knows exactly how you feel. He can feel those pains right along with you. He looks at our hearts and that is way beyond what we can do. I can understand the emotions you describe but I could not absolve you or remove the thoughts and emotions that are grinding on you after afterwards. I can only point you to the one who can and stands ready to respond when you take it to Him. Also, away in the future, if one of your children comes to you with a similar confession. You are now qualified to understand and respond. Good can come from things that are bad.