So I was awakened 40 years ago in the midst of a very bad situation, and since then I was aware of Jesus in my own way
Until March this year I had to go for a hip op , couldn't cope with the idea
My aunt and her friend spoke to me on the phone at 5 am on the day , I was filled with peace
I thought wow what great Christians ! I wanted to become one , I've tried
But i can't shake entirely my attraction to also Hinduism or my feeling that Jesus wasn't white
Since you are uncertain about your destiny, I would take time right now to really nail it down and make sure.
Hinduism teaches that good behavior/ works
are required for salvation, to come back in a better form or to Nirvana.
False Christianity does this too as it mixes faith in those works with faith in Jesus. With the conflicting teaching from Roman Catholicism and other forms of works teachings from similar churches, it can be confusing. God is not the Author of confusion.
Do you now understand this distinction between works and faith/ grace now?
AFTER a baby is born by no effort/ labor of himself, he grows up and does works. AFTER that person, like Nicodemus, you or I are born spiritually by No effort/labor/ work of our own, we are in the family of God and we work as a part of our proper role. However, that is altogether separate from the birthing event.
I did Nothing to be born, that was Mom's job.
I do Nothing to keep born either.
As a family member there were lots of works I did since I was a young child. They were not conditions for remaining a child of my parents. My Mom never told me to mow the lawn or she was going to send me to hell.
I did NOTHING to be saved and can do NOTHING to maintain my salvation. Christ did the work necessary for that and it is finished. I rest in Him for salvation. I now work for Him out of gratitude and love. The book of Isaiah says that" All of our righteousnesses are as filthy rags", as it pertains to salvation.
Romans 4:5-8 says,
"
5But to him that worketh not, but believeth on him that justifieth the ungodly, his faith is counted for righteousness. 6Even as David also describeth the blessedness of the man, unto whom God imputeth righteousness without works,
7Saying, Blessed
are they whose iniquities are forgiven, and whose sins are covered.
8Blessed
is the man to whom the Lord will not impute sin."
Now is the day of salvation.
I will help you pray to be sure of your destiny. You can tell the Lord Jesus Christ this and He promises eternal life.
Dear Jesus,
I know that I'm a sinner and deserve hell.
But please save me right now and give to me your precious gift of everlasting life.
Thank you for suffering for all of my sins on the cross so that I will not go to suffer in hell. Thank you for dying for me and rising the third day.
I can do absolutely no works to save myself.
You did that for me, so I now trust You with all my heart.
Thank You for saving me Jesus.
Amen