From the first post here to yours I had several responses I wanted to give but yours here deemed more importance.. Your request made me not able to express how I met him. met God not by church or influence but by all I have known of being unloved uncared about always underestimated always wondering what it feels like to actually be loved to matter just the sensation of of being enough.
Why others came to Christ I cannot say but I know all to well and still struggle with self worth always recieving the short end of the stick never knowing or understanding why though I am more than willing to help give or even suffer for others I myslef cannot have or recieve just basic understanding or love I even had a dream where I met a family who by no means were perfect they truly and actually loved and cared for each other this was the first time I encountered Jesus himself I saw this family longing so deeply to have what they had I asked them if I coulkd join their family knowing that is a super big thing to ask being brought into another family especially age wise or even the odd request of being grafted into a blood line that is not your own
I had the nerve to ask such a thing to request being grafted into an actual family people who take you because they actually care they see something in you how I would miss the family friday nights in my family when we would have family game or movie nights but I was always treated as to dumb to even cook eggs.
I met him in this despare it wasn't as if I hadn't been expose to the usual teaching of church it is as if I didn't grow up with the basic teachings of going to sunday church even if only by tradition but I met him because of everything lacking not because of what I was taught or shown.
If I can express myself in one way is that I have never been able to see past everuthing wrong with me veverything I lack everythning I should be but in that dream when I asked this family if I could join them I was met by a man in shaggd poorly dreseed in clothes of dirt and ragged used clothing hugged me the warmth he poured into me the love that reversese everything you may have lacked everything you craved but could never recieved and he said to me I had to make my family like this.
Those who lack are all the more grateful for what he does what he is how he sees us
To be seen even if you aare unable to see it in yourself we know grace we are all the more grateful for every good thing he gives does or says of us.
Grace as a topic is highly divided debated and misunderstood but how many times I have simply expressed my grattitude for him being there for putting up with me when I have more than once blashpemed curse and cussed at him more than deserving of being struck down such people are actually grateful and understand the value of his grace we know where we stand we know where we have been we know what we have done yet he was there we could always talk to him we could always express everything that alone makes us worship him just for being there
Grace is so misturdood the value of it what it actually means to those who need it it is just a topic to most people debate about it all the time but grace is a treasure a miracle for some a topic to debate and attack and strech for others
Why others came to Christ I cannot say but I know all to well and still struggle with self worth always recieving the short end of the stick never knowing or understanding why though I am more than willing to help give or even suffer for others I myslef cannot have or recieve just basic understanding or love I even had a dream where I met a family who by no means were perfect they truly and actually loved and cared for each other this was the first time I encountered Jesus himself I saw this family longing so deeply to have what they had I asked them if I coulkd join their family knowing that is a super big thing to ask being brought into another family especially age wise or even the odd request of being grafted into a blood line that is not your own
I had the nerve to ask such a thing to request being grafted into an actual family people who take you because they actually care they see something in you how I would miss the family friday nights in my family when we would have family game or movie nights but I was always treated as to dumb to even cook eggs.
I met him in this despare it wasn't as if I hadn't been expose to the usual teaching of church it is as if I didn't grow up with the basic teachings of going to sunday church even if only by tradition but I met him because of everything lacking not because of what I was taught or shown.
If I can express myself in one way is that I have never been able to see past everuthing wrong with me veverything I lack everythning I should be but in that dream when I asked this family if I could join them I was met by a man in shaggd poorly dreseed in clothes of dirt and ragged used clothing hugged me the warmth he poured into me the love that reversese everything you may have lacked everything you craved but could never recieved and he said to me I had to make my family like this.
Those who lack are all the more grateful for what he does what he is how he sees us
To be seen even if you aare unable to see it in yourself we know grace we are all the more grateful for every good thing he gives does or says of us.
Grace as a topic is highly divided debated and misunderstood but how many times I have simply expressed my grattitude for him being there for putting up with me when I have more than once blashpemed curse and cussed at him more than deserving of being struck down such people are actually grateful and understand the value of his grace we know where we stand we know where we have been we know what we have done yet he was there we could always talk to him we could always express everything that alone makes us worship him just for being there
Grace is so misturdood the value of it what it actually means to those who need it it is just a topic to most people debate about it all the time but grace is a treasure a miracle for some a topic to debate and attack and strech for others