Hi Everybody,
Sorry if I posted this in the wrong section. I am new here. The thing that brought me to a Christian forum is to explore some ideas regarding Christian faith and salvation. In particular, how do you know you are saved? Can you believe in God, believe that Jesus is the Messiah and be respectful towards God and yet not have your name in the book of life?
The thing that has me asking is, in the past I felt like my connection to God was validated through prayer. I would pray, then events would occur, usually never in the way I expected, that would bring me to what I believe was a God driven outcome.
Additionally, I felt like I saw the world in a way that only a Christian could and I thought that was through the eyes of the Holy Spirit.
Now, it seems like I pray and the answer is dead silence. I am not even sure the Spirit is there. Maybe my name is not in the book of life. I have been the grateful recipient of some wonderful gifts but God can bless the saved and unsaved as He chooses. Plus, I have shamefully shared some frustrated, angry words with God. I'm sure He wasn't too happy about that.
I have never been end times focused, beyond basic curiosity, but assumed the time of Christs return would be well past my lifetime. Given the state of current events, and I'm not just referring to war in Israel, I'm not so sure any more. Things seem different today, in a very bad way, and I have never felt so disconnected from God. Perhaps I have fallen from His favor or perhaps I was never really saved to begin with. I believe there will be lots of people who will be surprised to find out their name isn't on the list.
Interested in your thoughts on this topic. Thanks!
God says that faith comes by hearing , and hearing by the word of God. (Rom. 10:17, Gal. 3:2-5) And that God will keep in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on Him Is. 26:3, Ph'p 4: 5-9, Rom. 12: 1-2).
The world, the flesh and the devil therefore work to keep us away from engaging with the scriptures and from spending time contemplating the beauty of the nature, character and ways of God. If they can achieve this we will lose faith in Jesus Christ and our mind will be in anxious turmoil.
When we are being formed in the womb our names are written in the book (Ps. 139:15-16) of the Lamb who from the foundation of the world was destined to be slain (Rev. 13:8) . They are blotted out if we die without being been reckoned righteous by faith. As long as we are breathing, our name is in His book and we have time to begin believing God and die believing God.
I know I an saved because of God's promise to save whosoever is believing on the Son. And I am believing on the Son right now. How do I know the promises of scripture are from God? One day I was meditating on the gnana yoga question, "Who am I?" when, eyes closed, I saw a vision of a man I identified in my mind as Jesus Christ. He was shining in white robes and standing on the globe of the earth, his arms outstretched among the stars, and He said, "I created all this. It belongs to Me."
After I came out of my trance, I said to God, "If Jesus is who the bible says he is and the Bible is the only book I need to study to understand how to live my life, that makes things very simple for me. So, if the first people I stay with when I go hitch-hiking are born again Christians, I will take that a sign from you that Jesus is who the bible says he is and the Bible is the only book I need to study to understand how to live my life. A few weeks later, on day two of my journey, I was invited by a pair of men I met quite by chance to stay overnight where they were being housed.... alng with 40 other born again Christians. A few days later I met one of those men again and something in our conversation reminded me of my previous prayer. So, O bought a bible and started to read it and attend a local church. I have been a Jesus follower ever since , even though it became clear over time that my understanding of the Bible on many points has often been diametrically opposed to that of many other Christians. And my own understanding has changed on many points as I have studied the word and heard other interpretations of passages. Fortunately we are not saved by believing in perfect doctrine, but by trusting in the perfect Saviour and Lord. and seeking to follow Him.