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trueimage15
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hi im making this thread for support and advice because i reeaally need it right now and have been holding my feelings inside only to let them slip out a few times. this time is different though because my mom told my aunt about me not doing the dishes and kept stressing that i was a CHILD which i am but her way of saying made me feel worthless. on top of that she nor anyone else in my family matters about how i feel as long as i dont show it. im fifteen and can only take it for so long. heres the prob
I cant tell my mom my feelings because she will tell the rest of the family and church friends and my aunt will most likely smack me, however i don't think it matters because my mom won't care and will only say that it is what she wants. it doesnt matter that my stepdad to be slept over our house the first time we met him or that theyre now planning a wedding after less than three weeks of"dating". my feelings dont matter, no one cares. i feel as though im a puppet that must conform to their wishes and ways and totally forget myself and emotions. i shared my biggest, traumatic secret to someone i loved and trusted and because of this situation it didnt matter because i'll get over it. i trusted my ex- best friend now with something and she told her mom who told my mom and i got in trouble. i can't even go to my church leaders because they might betray me and tell her too. i am so sad and heartbroken and gosh i dont even know if inside of me or just an empty body going throughout life. im struggling so hard to stay in gods word and have faith in him but i dont know how to fully forgive someone or cast my burdens on him and i dont know how i know ive even done it. please please please help me brothers and sisters, i dont want to live my fifteenth year like this at all.
I cant tell my mom my feelings because she will tell the rest of the family and church friends and my aunt will most likely smack me, however i don't think it matters because my mom won't care and will only say that it is what she wants. it doesnt matter that my stepdad to be slept over our house the first time we met him or that theyre now planning a wedding after less than three weeks of"dating". my feelings dont matter, no one cares. i feel as though im a puppet that must conform to their wishes and ways and totally forget myself and emotions. i shared my biggest, traumatic secret to someone i loved and trusted and because of this situation it didnt matter because i'll get over it. i trusted my ex- best friend now with something and she told her mom who told my mom and i got in trouble. i can't even go to my church leaders because they might betray me and tell her too. i am so sad and heartbroken and gosh i dont even know if inside of me or just an empty body going throughout life. im struggling so hard to stay in gods word and have faith in him but i dont know how to fully forgive someone or cast my burdens on him and i dont know how i know ive even done it. please please please help me brothers and sisters, i dont want to live my fifteenth year like this at all.