With me it was not a decision in my Head, it Was in my HEART, Forever. The Last week of 1977, I tried to commit suicide 3 Times. Late at night, after the third attempt, HE brought me to my End of the Line. I dropped to my knees, as WAVE, After Wave, After Wave, of extreme GUILD over my WHOLE LIFESTYLE, washed Over me. I Cried more that a Baby cries, for at least 90 or more minutes, begging HIM to Forgive me. The Holy Spirit gave me a PRAYER, and I prayed from the bottom of my Heart: "Lord Forgive me, Please Forgive me. If you Got a Purpose for my life, YOU are going to have to come into my Heart, and Run it. I CAN'T DO IT, I AM MAKING A TOTAL MESS OF MY LIFE." No Church ever taught that Prayer to me.
That was a complete Surrender TO HIM, forever, out of pure LOVE for HIM. Not a Partial Surrender, a COMPLETE SURRENDER TO HIM, NOT 90% You can have, but 10% I want for myself. With my WHOLE BEING, I meant HE COULD HAVE ALL OF ME, and their was a DEEP, DEEP LOVE FOR HIM I my Heart. And it is Still Their.
I want to keep this short, but I need to tell you the Difference I noticed in my life from that moment on. I was like I had two minds, one in my head, and the other was in my HEART. The mind in my head seemed to be at War, with the Mind In my HEART. But the Spiritual Mind got Stronger, and Stronger, as I fed on the Word of GOD. Sometimes I have a Running Conversation with the LORD, AND I know HE is Listening. Now the Spiritual Mind dominates my life, and the human mind is but very small part of it. That Moment I said that PRAYER, was the very moment, the Holy Spirit immersed me into the Spiritual Body of Christ, even THOUGH I was Saved from the beginning of TIME.
2 Timothy 1:9 (HCSB)
9 He has saved us and called us with a holy calling, not according to our works, but according to His own purpose and grace, which was given to us in Christ Jesus before time began.
That is what I meant when I said:
DO YOU LOVE HIM WITH YOUR WHOLE HEART ? ? ?
I used to be an just a Lutheran, Now I am a Born Again Christian, and sure of it.