Why am I depressed?

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siddhikoli

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I have not been able to walk since birth.I remember sinning as a child.Because of this I want salvation.:approve

I don't like some people 👫saying bad words.:sad

I was a pure vegetarian because consuming non-vegetarian food is sinful.

I used to think about which religion to choose. That is to choose monotheism or polytheism.

Or I used to think about which deity to believe.

I went to church.⛪
I know and believe that Jesus the son of God healed some people but why am I not healed, some church is a hypocrite, who will pick me up and take me That means the family will not be able to pick me up.and I want salvation so I am sad and depressed.

I don't judge the church but the Lord will do it on the last day but I found that tabor ashram online and gave them 100 rupees to heal me but the pastor was just talking about the bible

and can't do anything. I was shocked😧
I was sad I thought that I will be cured by healing power means in physical

I started remembering negative things, became irritable and vitamin deficient and Fell unconscious.:thud

I was taken to Apollo Hospital and regained consciousness.🏥

Then I went to another hospital. Doctor gave me sleeping pill because I can't sleep all night.:sleep
And was not hungry.
My mother took me to a psychiatrist. I didn't say anything, I kept silent.

When I saw the Holy Spirit🕊️ I was afraid, I knew what the truth was. Then I started believing in monotheism.✝️
There is good news why the Holy Spirit appeared, He has something to tell me
Then I started eating vegetarian and non-vegetarian foods.🍖

Sitting on a wheel chair hurts my back .🧑‍🦽
 
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siddhikoli said:
I have not been able to walk since birth.I remember sinning as a child.Because of this I want salvation.:approve

I don't like some people 👫saying bad words.:sad

I was a pure vegetarian because consuming non-vegetarian food is sinful.

I used to think about which religion to choose. That is to choose monotheism or polytheism.

Or I used to think about which deity to believe.

I went to church.⛪
I know and believe that Jesus the son of God healed some people but why am I not healed, some church is a hypocrite, who will pick me up and take me That means the family will not be able to pick me up.and I want salvation so I am sad and depressed.

I don't judge the church but the Lord will do it on the last day but I found that tabor ashram online and gave them 100 rupees to heal me but the pastor was just talking about the bible

and can't do anything. I was shocked😧
I was sad I thought that I will be cured by healing power means in physical

I started remembering negative things, became irritable and vitamin deficient and Fell unconscious.:thud

I was taken to Apollo Hospital and regained consciousness.🏥

Then I went to another hospital. Doctor gave me sleeping pill because I can't sleep all night.:sleep
And was not hungry.
My mother took me to a psychiatrist. I didn't say anything, I kept silent.

When I saw the Holy Spirit🕊️ I was afraid, I knew what the truth was. Then I started believing in monotheism.✝️
There is good news why the Holy Spirit appeared, He has something to tell me
Then I started eating vegetarian and non-vegetarian foods.🍖

Sitting on a wheel chair hurts my back .🧑‍🦽
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Praying for you that your situation gets better, your health improves and you become closer to Christ.
 
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I have not been able to walk since birth.I remember sinning as a child.Because of this I want salvation.:approve

I don't like some people 👫saying bad words.:sad

I was a pure vegetarian because consuming non-vegetarian food is sinful.

I used to think about which religion to choose. That is to choose monotheism or polytheism.

Or I used to think about which deity to believe.

I went to church.⛪
I know and believe that Jesus the son of God healed some people but why am I not healed, some church is a hypocrite, who will pick me up and take me That means the family will not be able to pick me up.and I want salvation so I am sad and depressed.

I don't judge the church but the Lord will do it on the last day but I found that tabor ashram online and gave them 100 rupees to heal me but the pastor was just talking about the bible

and can't do anything. I was shocked😧
I was sad I thought that I will be cured by healing power means in physical

I started remembering negative things, became irritable and vitamin deficient and Fell unconscious.:thud

I was taken to Apollo Hospital and regained consciousness.🏥

Then I went to another hospital. Doctor gave me sleeping pill because I can't sleep all night.:sleep
And was not hungry.
My mother took me to a psychiatrist. I didn't say anything, I kept silent.

When I saw the Holy Spirit🕊️ I was afraid, I knew what the truth was. Then I started believing in monotheism.✝️
There is good news why the Holy Spirit appeared, He has something to tell me
Then I started eating vegetarian and non-vegetarian foods.🍖

Sitting on a wheel chair hurts my back .🧑‍🦽
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I saw this before. Your situation I know must be difficult. I would be angry if it were me. That is probably where your depression comes from. i.e. Anger turned inward. That friend of mine, Donny...one of Jerry's kids, seemed to take his situation fairly well for the time I knew him but I'll bet he had a lot of bad days. He and I didn't know about God and that at least is something for you to consider now that the Holy Spirit revealed Himself to you. I get the idea that people like you will be more blessed than many of these preachers when Jesus returns.
 
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The link opens an image of a 'piece' of diamond as made in a Russian lab. Not so apparent is the actual size may be like a slice of eraser from a #2 pencil. While that seems small, if it were a substrate usable for computer applications it would possibly be far superior to any currently in use. This is speculation only.

https://ars.els-cdn.com/content/image/1-s2.0-S2352492820326465-ga1.jpg
 
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Ever since the corona virus came, I was worried.:confused:
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Siddhi, that post is just a sample of a search I did for the way science is hoping to make a big advance with computers and phones and all things internet and maybe metaverse. I don't have smart phone. Do you? I said Dr. Reddy in post. Do you know that company?
 
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Siddhi, that post is just a sample of a search I did for the way science is hoping to make a big advance with computers and phones and all things internet and maybe metaverse. I don't have smart phone. Do you? I said Dr. Reddy in post. Do you know that company?
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No I have a Redmi note 5 pro.
I don't know the company and Dr Reddy
 
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This link is about diamonds as the 'jeweler' uses them and these diamonds may not be suitable for semiconductor applications. A property of diamond for semiconductor use is thermal conductivity. Also it may be possible that 'dopants' may be 'grown' in the diamond at the same time as the diamond 'grown'. That is not disclosed in any of the searches I have done thus far. And since the search started earlier today it is possible it will take some time find information of this nature. The application for semiconductor use is probably a closely guarded process which is likely not disclosed. This video is can be misleading in that regard and is only addressing 'jewelry' application of diamond. Minimally interesting.
 
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This article first published 1953 by the Royal Society Publishing, sounds British but doesn't say, was digitized possibly 2002 and a download counter on the site shows that between 2019 and 2020 the number of downloads went from near 0 (nil) to more than 2600.
INTERESTING if true.

Article
The thermal conductivity of diamond at low temperatures
R. Berman
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Franz Eugen Simon
and
John Michael Ziman
Published:10 November 1953https://doi.org/10.1098/rspa.1953.0180

Abstract
The thermal conductivity of a type I diamond has been measured between 2° K and room temperature. Above 100° K the temperature variation of conductivity accords with Peierls’s theory of Umklapp processes. To account for the results at the lowest temperatures it is necessary to assume that some specular reflexion of phonons occurs at the crystal boundaries. Casimir’s theoretical treatment of boundary scattering has been extended to take into account the finite length of specimens and the smoothness of the crystal walls, and the experimental results show that at 3° K the proportion of specular reflexions is as great as 40%. Between 50 and 100° K the conductivity is considerably less than that calculated for an ideal diamond, and some conclusions are drawn as to the imperfections which cause this discrepancy.
https://royalsocietypublishing.org/doi/abs/10.1098/rspa.1953.0180
 
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This man of God had 3 'incurable' diseases diagnosed by a leading Physician from the Mayo clinic. They told him if one of the diseases didn't kill him, the other ones would. Here is his testimony of how he went on to preach, healed, for 60+ more yrs.
 
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I went to church.⛪
I know and believe that Jesus the son of God healed some people but why am I not healed, some church is a hypocrite, who will pick me up and take me That means the family will not be able to pick me up.and I want salvation so I am sad and depressed.

I don't judge the church but the Lord will do it on the last day but I found that tabor ashram online and gave them 100 rupees to heal me but the pastor was just talking about the bible
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I'm sorry. Because I said, some church is a hypocrite,I understand now that When I went to Tabor Ashram, water was sprinkled.That means I was baptized
And the pastor was talking about the Bible and the priest was sprinkling water. Paid Rs 100 to the lady. The womens were singing, on the dj
 
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I'm sorry. Because I said, some church is a hypocrite,I understand now that When I went to Tabor Ashram, water was sprinkled.That means I was baptized
And the pastor was talking about the Bible and the priest was sprinkling water. Paid Rs 100 to the lady. The womens were singing, on the dj
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hope you are ok....I will remember you when I pray
 
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siddhikoli said:
I'm sorry. Because I said, some church is a hypocrite,I understand now that When I went to Tabor Ashram, water was sprinkled.That means I was baptized
And the pastor was talking about the Bible and the priest was sprinkling water. Paid Rs 100 to the lady. The womens were singing, on the dj
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And priest was spreading incense
 
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And priest was spreading incense
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Siddhi, the link here is to how Alexander MacLaren understood what the Bible says. He was a Scotsman and died around 1909. His commentary sounds to me to be fairly accurate but as I am new to understanding the Bible I could be wrong so you should try to find someone to help you understand what the Bible says yourself and get some help to try and read through and see what the commentary of Mark 6 by Alexander MacLaren says. To my mind it seems it could be helpful to you. It is a lot to read and understand. But it tells some of the reasons Jesus can or cannot heal people. I hope this helps you. I think you will have some hard work to do in trying to find people of faith. Read verses below. Siddhi, be careful. I am sure there are many people that say they can help and have faith but do not.

LINK >>>>> https://biblehub.com/commentaries/maclaren/mark/6.htm


1 Corinthians 12:8 For to one is given by the Spirit the word of wisdom; to another the word of knowledge by the same Spirit; 9 To another faith by the same Spirit; to another the gifts of healing by the same Spirit;


2 Thessalonians 3:2 And that we may be delivered from unreasonable and wicked men: for all men have not faith.
 
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And priest was spreading incense
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Siddhi, The following is Psalm #13 from the book of Psalms. When I read Psalms I find some that are the way I understand God and how I think about my life and how I think about God Maybe this Psalm is some of the way you think about yourself and God. ...........................................................................

1 O LORD, how long will you forget me? Forever? How long will you look the other way?

2 How long must I struggle with anguish in my soul, with sorrow in my heart every day? How long will my enemy have the upper hand?

3 Turn and answer me, O LORD my God! Restore the sparkle to my eyes, or I will die.

4 Don’t let my enemies gloat, saying, “We have defeated him!” Don’t let them rejoice at my downfall.

5 But I trust in your unfailing love. I will rejoice because you have rescued me.

6 I will sing to the LORD because he is good to me.


I don't know if it is true but I think in the video I posted about Wigglesworth he says, “the devil is the cause of illness and impairment”. If that is true than the 'ENEMY' in Psalm 13 can be the Devil.
 
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