No, I don’t know where you stand with God. But Christ bore the curse due us. He has given us His Spirit that we may grow in understanding of His Word (among other things)
Below is the curse of fallen man and a fallen world and it’s still active in the world and in all living people. Christ didn’t take it away, not yet. Though a New Heavens and New Earth is coming later. The curse that Christ took away was the curse of the Law of Moses.
Genesis 3:16-20 KJV
16Unto the woman he said, I will greatly multiply thy sorrow and thy conception; in sorrow thou shalt bring forth children; and thy desire shall be to thy husband, and he shall rule over thee.
17And unto Adam he said, Because thou hast hearkened unto the voice of thy wife, and hast eaten of the tree, of which I commanded thee, saying, Thou shalt not eat of it: cursed is the ground for thy sake; in sorrow shalt thou eat of it all the days of thy life;
18Thorns also and thistles shall it bring forth to thee; and thou shalt eat the herb of the field;
19In the sweat of thy face shalt thou eat bread, till thou return unto the ground; for out of it wast thou taken: for dust thou art, and unto dust shalt thou return.
20And Adam called his wife's name Eve; because she was the mother of all living.