Hell was created for Satan and his angels, not man. God is not willing that anyone should perish but that all should be saved and come to the knowledge of the truth. Of course you cannot fix yourself. No one can. God alone can fix people. He wants to fix you. I was like you. I despised myself. I was weak, introverted, unsociable, fearful, dishonest, a drunk, depressed and suicidal. If God can fix me, He can fix anyone. And God has fixed me. I'm nothing like I used to be - only by God's grace.