@JAPOV
"Hear me now" I heard Him say
That fateful awesome doubt filled day
His face ablaze and voice thundered
In dreadful fear my soul shuddered
Yes, those were not the words He spoke to me, and yet His voice
did thunder, and there was certainly no not hearing what He said.
As frightening and confusing as it was in the moment, I most
certainly now do take comfort in knowing I knew Who was
speaking, even as much as I wanted to deny it.
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Then in darkness I felt peace
A silent spirit reached to me
I felt no peace! LOL I was in more turmoil than I think I've ever known, before or since.
But I said, no, I can't believe
Perhaps my mind plays tricks, deceives
I would be crazy to believe
That God has spoken to me
Yeah, so true LOL
But the Spirit did not leave
As dreams of dragons filled my sleep
Visions of horsemen and angels
No longer seemed so fateful
I wasn't sleeping. I couldn't sleep. What happened that night, was the
single most terrifying thing I have ever experienced in my life. I rarely
speak of it because I don't think most people would understand. Heck,
I'm not even sure I understand. It is possible it was my spiritual
circumcision. It certainly was not performed by human hands.
But I felt it. Nobody, and I mean nobody, could explain to me what
had happened. I consulted a lot of people, the so-called spiritual
teachers, healers, and practitioners I was consorting with. None
of them knew. Their offerings, telling me God did not exist and
stories of Jesus were just stories, I could no longer accept as true.
The flesh is certainly weak
But there's a promise for the meek
Written in that good Book
So I took another look...
What'cha think
Well done