"I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." - Galatians 2:20 And yet...
" I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do." - Romans 7:15 But I fight the good fight...
" Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me." - Philippians 3:12
It's a matter of maturing as a Christian.