To be fair I do have some self-control.
some? sin is never seen by God as some.
Whether its with tv or out in the public (struggle sometimes when I do go out), I just struggle the most when I'm in the house, which is where I spend most of my time.
Pray and read the word and seek God
I think loneliness is a valid excuse.
It is not a valid excuse to sin
Of course sinning is never a good thing and I don't have an excuse for that, but loneliness is a major thing that effects (presumably) millions of people.
Here is the issue what if the person you are with is not wanting to have sex but wants you to enjoy their company? if you have someone to talk to and take places you will not be lonely but if you base it on sex you will lose them for sure.
And although sex is a foundation for a relationship,
Sex is never a foundation of the relationship it reinforces what is already there. FYI a case of E.D. will bring your foundation down.
it is not the only thing I'm interested in. I would like to have someone to help me with faith, lift me up when I'm down, care for me, etc.
That is a good thing
So again it may seem like i don't care, or am just a lustful person with no control but that's simply not the case.
The heart of man is evil and wicked yours and mine. The flesh does and will always pull you to that part of your life.
This part is mostly true.
I've tried praying to god for help, but so far nothing has changed. maybe it's just me IDK.
You have not tried hard enough there is help and you must want it. You are very young and I encourage you to place your sexual drive into the word of God and surrender to God all. Tell Him what HE knows and separate yourself from those things that cause you to dwell on sexual gratification. No woman is going to be with a person that is overly sex-driven. Women will think as most do all you want is sex. Not dealing with this will mean you will not stop even if you are having sex in a marriage.
Not sure what you mean by this.
what I mean is there is no sense of you having shame for this kind of action. On that, I could be wrong but I don't see in your writing true remorse of desire to stop and have victory.
You maybe right.