We know while Jesus was being nailed to the Cross and the mockers began, He said, Father, forgive them for they know not what they are doing. But as we read throughout His ministry, and we saw how He had to make himself invisible to escape a couple of times when the Zealots picked up rocks to Stone Him, His heart was Broken. His Feelings were tested. And at times, we even see him lash out calling them Full of Dead Bones and Vipers. I totally believe His Heart was the purest of all and He felt the Pain of being Mocked, Scorned, and Rejected.
I know in my own life, people think if you're too smiley and joyful, you are a funny kind of person. It literally takes everything within me, and I have over 25+ years in 3 Self Defense Techniques, to not just floor those who are ignorant towards me. I can visibly see them lying in a puddle of their own blood because at times their words catch me off guard. I have to immediately seek forgiveness and get my mind back onto God. It's the hardest Test of my life. It is my [Paul's Version] Thorn in my side.
The World is cruel, the People of the World are even crueler.
So to say, you cannot be hurt if your heart is Right with God is a mistake. We tend to forget, what we face day to day, is far less than what many others are facing. And it is just possible, what we do face, is more harsher than what others face.
But each time it happens, I can see I handle it better and better.
The people who know me well, know I would give the shirt right off my back if they were in need. But the World see's that as weakness and tries to jump on that and tear me down. I don't cry, I have learned to keep quiet, I have learned to forgive them in my mind and heart quicker, I even pray for them. But, it still is painful. It still feels like a knife running inside of you. Yes, we are more than Conquerors! But, we are also created to Feel how wicked this World is, in order to understand just How Good Our God is!
