I've been reading the bible now for I'm not even sure 12 hours straight
I've read Revelations before and it was mysterious only because there were loose ends I could tell required to read the rest of the Bible to understand
And to be honest I'm quite frightened after reading through matthew mark luke in order while comparing passages but I haven't finished Luke yet
It's not often I read that much at a time, maybe I'm just tired
I think what frightens me is how little I've known about the Bible so maybe other people notice these things too but I've never been taught these things by those I'd expect are well versed with the bible
Sorry I'm tired
Currently I don't have a set understanding to make any statements or conclusions I'm just a little afraid after what I've read
Don't be afraid. There are things, especially in the Gospels, that are never taught. You never hear a sermon on eating Jesus' flesh or hating your parents. You never hear them talk about that in John, toward the end, Jesus seems to be indicating that we will become him. Like we will be one with him. We want to make him our King, but he wants us to be a unified whole with him. Suddenly then it makes sense: eat his flesh, drink his blood--you are what you eat. Apparently, that's true spiritually speaking as well. We don't become Jesus Christ, but we become Edward Christ and User Christ. More importantly, we lose who we think we are in order to become who he is.
I'm babbling I suppose. The fact is there are lots of things you never learn in Sunday school. And the whole system is set up so you don't think you have any authority to determine what the Bible means. Even when they encourage you to read your Bible, they never really mean you should try to interpret it for yourself. They think you should leave that to them.
And keep this in mind--you can read the Bible till your eyes fall out onto the pages, but all you'll end up is some academic who knows all about the Bible, the history, the Ancient Greek language, the Hebrew culture of the first century, etc., but the mystery of it will still escape you. Jesus wasn't joking when he said we have to be like children to understand. He didn't mean stupid, he meant you can't be legalistic and academic and get what he's trying to give you.
Just remember this: When it comes to being an expert in the Gospels or Revelation, it's all a smoke screen. If you dig deep enough into the Church you will find out that there is no agreement on what atonement is, how we are saved, if Jesus is ever coming back, what the end times will be like, whether or not Jesus is actually God, what books should be in the Bible, and in all of that darkness, you will find them fighting each other. This one condemning that one to hell for heresy because this one is a post-millennial dispensationalist preterist and that one is a futurist, amillennial, post-tribulationist.
You might as well just read a chapter from Luke and decide what it means for yourself, User00. The Holy Spirit won't let you down.