I don't know how to explain it, but I will try:
I was deeply into the occult. I was a professional psychic for over a year in the New Orleans area, but I realized Christ was exactly what He said he was: The Way, the Truth, and the life. That notwithstanding, I have become convinced that the end-times are upon us. I have repented of the occult. I have rededicated myself to Veridicanism (which is another topic). And I have become a seriously obsessed student of the end times and Revelation. The interesting thing about Revelation, I discovered, is that it's like interpreting a dream, or tarot cards, or an astrological chart, and I have a skill for that sort of thing.
Look, sometimes I have gone down divergent paths. I have repented of those. But the gifts remain, and now I lay them at the feet of Christ, and I will do the will of God that he pre-ordained me for--in Christ.
Maybe I'm insane. You know, a lot of people in religion and online in forums just like these are, in fact, insane. But I have my Bible open now, on my desk before me, open to the book of Revelation, and each verse draws me in, and I can't escape because it's like a spiritual whirlpool. And I must follow what I think God has called me to do in Christ.
But my madness, as severe as it may be, I will make this confession and you can be the judge, my dear Timothy:
I love Jesus Christ.
He is my salvation.
There is no way to God, our Father, except through Him.
He has given us talents and we must use them, or our lives are for nothing.
And I am a sinner--probably much worse than you. I live for one reason only: His atonement for me, and the infinite grace and mercy of the Father who has a love big enough to take in all evil.
I assure you, my only psychological recourse is to do the will of God I know for a fact he has ordained me to do.
Otherwise, I might as well be mad. I might as well be dead.
Thank you for reading this rant, if you have gotten this far.
Yours in Christ,
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