I am so sorry for all the things you've been through, and I really hope the future is brighter for you, but my goodness, what an astute observation.
A friend was asking me just the other day about my experiences with childhood bullying, as he unfortunately has many incidences he remembers. The funny thing for me is, while I can remember the kids laughing at me, I can't remember exactly what it was they were laughing about, aside from "the usual" (remarks about slanted eyes, etc.) It all seems so long ago that it just doesn't matter so much anymore.
BUT, if you ask me about my most prominent scars that are most definitely still there -- pretty much every. single. one. would start out with the words, "Well, there was this guy..."
Goodness gracious.
How is it that we've all bought into the idea that "finding someone" will "make it all better" when the search alone nearly kills us.
Oh no, not at all. I am tongue in cheek and really do make fun of myself for my own humor to laugh at myself.
My story is I came to Christ as a kid and about my teen years I went prodigal and spent the next 30 plus years backslidden and prodigal and only came back to the Lord like 3 years ago cause found you just can't swim upstream or kick against the pricks.
So a lot of my comments are me laughing at myself and just saying yeah Lord I know I am thick....LOL Reckon a private joke between me and the Lord how one man can sure be thick......LOL
So when I say things like every tragic story in my life has a gal involved, it is humor. I am reminding myself of how thick I can be. For example one period of my life I worked as a roofer. I live in Colorado so snow and mountains are a thing. So a roof I was on it had snowed on it that eve. So the next day when I was working was just cold and wet and got tired of how much it hurt hitting my fingers with the hammer.
So I called it a day and climbed down and headed over to my uncles to spend the rest of the day drinking beer with him and just clowning around. So the day progressed on and figured heck is about quitting time so better call my wife. Well between that thought and calling her I figured heck I am just gonna hang out more and drink some more.
So I called my ex and said hey this job is a hard one so gonna be longer and not sure when I will get home. She replied back you are at your uncles and that is cool go ahead and stay and have fun. Well I was already into the lie so I could have just come clean but no I wanted to double down.
So I replied back wow here I am busting my tail for my family and you wanna say I am hanging out. She laughed and said it is ok I know you are at your uncles and that is fine, but don't lie, it's all good.
Well never being one to learn quickly I doubled down again and protested how offended I was she would even think such. She replied back you are a idiot did you forget we have caller ID. I replied back I will be home in about twenty minutes honey.
My scars are of my own self making. I could be on a motorcycle and see a couple gals and think I am gonna impress them. I am gonna pop a wheelie. Find myself in the emergency room getting stitches and all the road rash cleaned out and think to myself why do I do these things to myself....LOL
So that is my scars and tragedy my own self making and how those stories all begin with there was this girl....LOL
So no my life has been comedic and never boring as I can be thick...........LOL My apologies I was not clear I was making fun of myself and what I get me into......LOL
My heart does go out to you for what you have experienced and grateful that we have the Lord to heal us with our emotional distraught. So I am sorry your experiences with men has not been all pleasant.
So honestly when you read me most of the time I am just making fun of myself and what I have gotten myself into so is tongue in cheek.