Well what is the point of me waiting until marriage? No one will probably marry someone like me who is so ugly and worthless and should just go to hell and die! No guys will want me as their wife!
But I'm probably never going to get married because I am very worthless and ugly.... so why even worry about marriage if it's never going to happen! I'm not like that girl in my school who is so beautiful and has a 100% chance of getting married while my chance is 0%! I hope I'm dead before it's even TIME for me to get married. Even if I am alive then it probably won't happen.
So you can draw upon your vast understanding of how the whole world works with your 13 years of experience in life? So much so that you know the whole sum of your future?
Totally and completely ridiculous...and you know that too.
Your body has a lot of maturing yet to do. You haven't even started with the adult clothes... you are still in awkward teenage mode surrounded by other geeky teenagers who will do ANYTHING to draw attention away from themselves by poking fun at anyone and everyone else. Everyone is gangly and disproportionate at your age... making a final determination at this point is proof your cognitive skills need work.
You haven't even hit High School or college yet.
Your cognitive abilities have just barely achieved the first level of function with 4 more levels to go.
But I can say with all complete confidence that the attitude you display is the direct cause of the attitude you will receive from others.
That prettiest girl in school? Ok when all she can converse about is what clothes to wear and how to apply makeup and exactly what exercise routines work best....uggghhhh....nobody will care. All she is then is something akin to furniture...she is no longer a person with character...she will be someone's accessory that eventually gets traded in for something new and fresh.
You don't want that treatment....ever. Be glad you aren't her. Be very grateful. And as long as you are doing the customary expected hygiene regimen of showering and brushing your teeth on a daily basis... you ain't ugly.
Known a woman whose face and body was covered in strawberry. (Red and purple splotches)
Her appearance was not even comfortable...but she was confident and generous and pleasant to talk to. And if Marty hadn't started dating her I would have. (As it was he married her) I got a different woman for my wife.
The whole story is to explain to you that appearance only gets a guys attention. (One that you might want to date) but your personality is what keeps his attention. And if it doesn't...then you don't want him in your life.
The "easy" girls in school never faired well... you don't have to go down that path. There's lots of attention available for you for other things if you will avail yourself of them. And if you need help doing so there is a whole world of adults and friends who will be willing to help. But your request must be made clear.... grunting or vague hints aren't going to cut it. Neither is screaming at them about how they just don't understand going to work either. Gotta put on the big girl panties and act like an adult when asking for real help with this stuff.
And I think that you will be pleasantly surprised with the results of asking appropriately for what you want.