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Hello guys, I'll try to make my question as short as possible kindly share your opinion with biblical support if possible. I was in a relationship with a girl for 3 years before coming into Christ. That relationship wasn't really healthy it was a long distant one we were constantly fighting over small issues there was no peace since Christ wasn't with us. The only thing that held us together was lust. She dumped when I told her I comforted one of my cousins(to whom I had feelings before) when she was feeling down by holding her hand(This is India so it's kind of a big thing here). Yet I myself told her that and she accused me of cheating on her and dumped me. I was a wretch for 6 months blamed myself of being a cheater. I apologised yet she blocked me from everything I couldn't understand anything because If i wanted to cheat on her I could have hid it from her. I didn't try to get back to her. So after six months when i was filled with fake guilt by satan and hating myself diverting myself from reality with games and porn. That's when Jesus decided to save a trash like me. I still couldn't understand why lord chose a useless person like me. I'm forever grateful for his love. From then I have his peace then i realised it's all His plan to take me away from that girl because i was idolizing that relationship my eyes were closed back then. And now i see. God himself talked to me through verses like don't go back to her several times. Even after all these whenever I see her in a recent picture or something there's a heaviness inside me. I totally understand it's God's will that i got saved from that relationship and now I have eternity but still something in me doesn't accept it. I don't want to go back to her it's hell(I don't blame her she's a very good person) but whenever something related to her hits me something stirs inside but as soon as I ask God for strength it leaves in a day or two. Can someone help me with this ?.
