I honestly don't know where to start, I love my parents to death and I am grateful for them being in my life . I've been a pretty good child my whole life because of how strict my parents are. There's nothing wrong of wanting to protect your child, Just to the point where you cant even trust your own child anymore. I had nothing bad in mind just wanted to go out and hang out with my friends, be able to go out. My parents would never let me do that. I kept on getting the answer no too many times where I just got fed up with it. My ex and I were talking at the time and even though things never felt the same because we were broken up, I still wanted to talk and hangout. That Saturday night he told me to seek out and hangout with him, at first I didn't want to because I know that my parents would definitely say no , but i was done staying inside everyday. I decided to go we met up and it was fun at first but he wanted to do more things that I wasn't ready for, once i told him no he kind of got serious and said that I should go home which i agreed. We got into the car and i saw that he left me a big hickey on my neck i got so scared and shocked that I didn't know how to react. Me thinking how was i going to cover this up. It was a awkward dive back home and that whole night, I couldn't sleep. Now my mother found out and she's going to talk to me any minute, I texted him saying of what happen and if its okay that i said the truth, he just said that he didn't want to put his name out there which showed me who he really is. I thought that i was going to have fun but instead it hit me back making me feel uncomfortable and unsafe. I feel like I'm doing more bad things because of how strict my parents are and when they do let me go out I go crazy and do things that I end up regretting. i need help