Well lets start with Genesis 1:1.
You first.
Oh you want my confession? Well that's such a long list. I can't even begin... but I'll tell you this, my list is soooooooooo long, that if He forgave even me, He is for SURE a benevolent God. If you want the actual list of my sins, you better be prepared for a book... and yet, even through those sins, I was looking to Him to save me... and for some incredibly unknown reason, He graced me with the Holy Spirit. I still can't figure out why to this day. Like, even though Jesus came to save us.......I feel like ....but really? me too? cuz I've been the stupidest doof imaginable! I have done things that make my head spin, especially when I realized He saw them all... and I'm still confounded thinking... really? why me, Lord? I was a complete basket-case? Why would u do this for me? I still don't get it. Do you realize how many ppl have sinned "less" than me... and still, He showed me the way? And there is no way that I can figure to get un-confused by it. I think, I have seen nice ppl, but I was not one. I was merely a blind one. And I think, "Oh my Lord, what on earth did you see in me to make you want to help me?" I just sit here shaking my head as I type thinking, I might never get it. But you know what? He still did it. He still graced me. and I feel like I should give it back. I should say, "Good God in heaven, I am so not worthy, that I don't even want to defile your world.... still, (trying not to cry)... He seems to have said, "It's okay, I love you anyway." Yep, there's the tears, cuz if you really see God's true grace.... it can make a person bawl.... cry so hard.... wondering the whole time... why?" And yet... being appreciative... but the appreciation falls beneath the tears ... that make me still say... Why? I mean I love you... but why? I didnt do nearly enough to receive this.... and still... thank you... but i'm going to be in shock for a good long time i think