I feel a lot of people are going to fight you on this, brother. And most people can see why. And still, I know where you are coming from. If I had to judge from my own life, and how I fought to beat this evil old life, I'd say it took a fury. Unfortunately, and yet fortunately, Jesus did not fight with fury. Some will point back to the "righteous fury," but did you see how many times Jesus could have been furious, but found forgiveness for oh so many. This is the way of Jesus. There was a time, that I wanted to fight evil so bad that I felt like if I had nukes, I'd have blown up the world. Thanks to God, I didn't have nukes, lol. So I didn't blow up the world. And I kept thinking … what would Jesus Do? Did Jesus bomb the world. No. Did he hurt everyone who ticked him off? No. Occasionally, he called a Pharisee or Sadducee "a brood of vipers," and they deserved much worse I'm guessing. But as scripture said something about, Jesus would not bruise one reed. Well, that's the job, it would seem. That we don't come to hurt... but we come to heal. If all you want to do is hurt, are you no more than the destructor? And isn't all God's children really want, is to heal? To make clean, what is filthy? To heal, what is sick? To do away with turmoil, and find peace? If you find yourself continuing to want to destroy... then wide is the gate... that leads to destruction. But narrow/strait is the gate that leads to life. Sometimes, we just have to take a deep breath... and give it to God. However, we do still have a job to do. But it's not a job of hate. It's a job of love, life, and salvation. Let God judge for the most part, and let us teach/preach and give God such glory. God bless you, brother!