bear with me brother, many of us (should be all of us) are having hard times. I have heard people about our age talk about stuff like this (but it happens to everyone else too) and even me, I do wrong and the temptation thinks it got me, but I got faith somewhere in Christ I believe and I am saved by grace, why then should I sin, I do it to where we just get mad and convicted. Actaully brother to feel conviction and pain shows that God is inside of you, because what breaks or hurts Him effect us. Note again means the Holy Ghost is with you.
Bear with me and the other Christian, just bear the world is what I am saying, just try cause you automatically fail without trying. So God knows our hearts bro, just please we all have problems, but don't let it get between you and Jesus. It may seem like it, but everyday God is somewhere and somehow clearing the wicked out of our soul and sinfulness in our Spirit.
Love you bro, keep it up for Christ not me