Midnight Confessions

[tourist]

My mind is full. I’d like to empty it or press refresh.

I need to reboot too.

 

[tourist]

I confess that it's after midnight and I'm not tired yet.

Give it a few more minutes.

 

[Magenta]

I enjoy (or need) an occasional nap too. Since coming to Tennessee and living in motel rooms waiting for our new home to close my sleeping schedule is out of whack. It does not help either being temporarily out of work as my daily routine was based on my work schedule. My main duties now is to each morning clean out the kitty litter pan and take out the trash. First thing I want to happen after we finally move in is to get another job even if it is only part-time. Right now I feel like I'm in a life raft drifting aimlessly.

I was wondering just last night where you and Darlene are at in your getting settled in Tennessee Hopefully you will be settled in your new home very soon and get back on track with a new job. Have you been making applications anywhere? Would you like to keep working in a bakery? Surely bakeries are busy at this time prepping for Christmas. My goodness, it is so close now The whole year has seemingly gone by in a flash

 

[tourist]

confess, tired and need comfy sleepy time

That's how I feel after waking up in the morning.

 

[Ruby123]

I could use a little warming as it is cold outside. Starting to miss Florida big-time.

So where have you moved to Tourist and how far away is it from Florida?

 

[Magenta]

I could use a little warming as it is cold outside. Starting to miss Florida big-time.

Idina Menzel & Michael Bublé - Baby It's Cold Outside

 

[tourist]

I was wondering just last night where you and Darlene are at in your getting settled in Tennessee Hopefully you will be settled in your new home very soon and get back on track with a new job. Have you been making applications anywhere? Would you like to keep working in a bakery? Surely bakeries are busy at this time prepping for Christmas. My goodness, it is so close now The whole year has seemingly gone by in a flash

I haven't applied for employment yet but rather waiting to get settled in first as there are still a lot of little details to work out and working now would tend to be disrupting. As it stands now, I really don't even have an address. It does look however that we should be moving into our new home by the end of the year.

About the bakery, there is a super Walmart less than a mile from where we are going to live. I thought about applying for a position in the bakery department as I am quite familiar with that position. I don't need to earn a lot of money just enough to supplement our income. Yeah, get the bakery job and then seriously start thinking outside the box and pursue a position outside of my comfort zone.

I really don't believe that I will ever fully retire as I function best in a working routine. Still, I am very close in reaching the point where I can work if I want to and not need to. I will turn 66 next month but still feel pretty good physically. I might, by the grace of God be able to have a mini-career of 5 or 10 years.

Through the years, even when I was single, I felt that eventually I will finally leave the workplace in a body bag. Of course, to be able to continue working, even part-time I will have to quit smoking. So, I quit smoking to live long enough to die at work.

I have a saying that "It's not so bad if you think about it". Perhaps I have I tendency to over-think things and waste a lot of precious time sweating the small stuff. Or maybe I just thrive in chaos. Hard to say. My late father-in-law use to ask me what it is about me for doing the things that I do. I said "Dad, I don't know. I'm not a psychiatrist".

What I really want to do and called to do is to do whatever it takes to be a loving and faithful husband to my wife in all respects.

Crazy huh?

 

[Ruby123]

I haven't applied for employment yet but rather waiting to get settled in first as there are still a lot of little details to work out and working now would tend to be disrupting. As it stands now, I really don't even have an address. It does look however that we should be moving into our new home by the end of the year.

About the bakery, there is a super Walmart less than a mile from where we are going to live. I thought about applying for a position in the bakery department as I am quite familiar with that position. I don't need to earn a lot of money just enough to supplement our income. Yeah, get the bakery job and then seriously start thinking outside the box and pursue a position outside of my comfort zone.

I really don't believe that I will ever fully retire as I function best in a working routine. Still, I am very close in reaching the point where I can work if I want to and not need to. I will turn 66 next month but still feel pretty good physically. I might, by the grace of God be able to have a mini-career of 5 or 10 years.

Through the years, even when I was single, I felt that eventually I will finally leave the workplace in a body bag. Of course, to be able to continue working, even part-time I will have to quit smoking. So, I quit smoking to live long enough to die at work.

I have a saying that "It's not so bad if you think about it". Perhaps I have I tendency to over-think things and waste a lot of precious time sweating the small stuff. Or maybe I just thrive in chaos. Hard to say. My late father-in-law use to ask me what it is about me for doing the things that I do. I said "Dad, I don't know. I'm not a psychiatrist".

What I really want to do and called to do is to so whatever it takes to be a loving and faithful husband to my wife in all respects.

Crazy huh?

So if you did pick another type of work, what would it be Tourist??

 

[tourist]

So where have you moved to Tourist and how far away is it from Florida?

We have moved to a little city called Jamestown, Tennessee which is in the northeast part of the state about 90 minutes from Knoxville. It is about 700 miles from Clearwater, Florida where we used to live in the Tampa / St. Petersburg / Clearwater metropolitan area.

Went from a population of 3,500,000 to 2000. It is an extreme change to what I am accustomed too. It's cold here too. Snow flurries yesterday. Florida is a 24/7/365 world, here things shut down when the sun sets. Strange as it may seem I miss the traffic congestion, non-stop police sirens and the occasional distant sounds of gunshots in the wee hours of the night. I am living in a strange new world.

 

[Ruby123]

I confess I can rarely make it to midnight any more For many years while working I stayed up to -or way past- midnight on a regular basis, but these days my bedtime is quite a bit earlier. Sometimes it is a struggle to stay up past 7:30, and often I go to bed right after dinner, even if my dinner is quite early, especially if I have not napped during the day Like yesterday and the day before; both days I needed to go out, first for lab work, and then a doctor's appointment, and that interfered with my sporadic sleep schedule. Mind you, I am often up at four in the morning One day after a particularly early bedtime, I was up at 2 making my morning coffee And this is why I need naps during the day LOL. I take advantage of my necessary outings to sneak in some grocery shopping

My doc confirmed yesterday that I have osteoporosis. I have lost a bit over two inches in height Who knew? LOL. We notice weight gain and growth spurts, but height shrinkage? I had no idea. Osteoporosis is in my family though; two of my brothers have lost height, as did my mother, and my closest sister is osteo confirmed as well.

I used to work with a really nice guy who had this condition where after he ate he would almost always fall dead asleep within five or so minutes. So he was only able to eat once a day at night when he came home from work. He couldn't have breakfast or lunch otherwise he would fall asleep on the job. Terrible really.
I pray that the osteo will not have a negative effect on your health Magenta.

 

[Magenta]

I haven't applied for employment yet but rather waiting to get settled in first as there are still a lot of little details to work out and working now would tend to be disrupting. As it stands now, I really don't even have an address. It does look however that we should be moving into our new home by the end of the year.

About the bakery, there is a super Walmart less than a mile from where we are going to live. I thought about applying for a position in the bakery department as I am quite familiar with that position. I don't need to earn a lot of money just enough to supplement our income. Yeah, get the bakery job and then seriously start thinking outside the box and pursue a position outside of my comfort zone.

I really don't believe that I will ever fully retire as I function best in a working routine. Still, I am very close in reaching the point where I can work if I want to and not need to. I will turn 66 next month but still feel pretty good physically. I might, by the grace of God be able to have a mini-career of 5 or 10 years.

Through the years, even when I was single, I felt that eventually I will finally leave the workplace in a body bag. Of course, to be able to continue working, even part-time I will have to quit smoking. So, I quit smoking to live long enough to die at work.

I have a saying that "It's not so bad if you think about it". Perhaps I have I tendency to over-think things and waste a lot of precious time sweating the small stuff. Or maybe I just thrive in chaos. Hard to say. My late father-in-law use to ask me what it is about me for doing the things that I do. I said "Dad, I don't know. I'm not a psychiatrist".

What I really want to do and called to do is to do whatever it takes to be a loving and faithful husband to my wife in all respects.

Crazy huh?

Leaving work in a body bag I get it My boss had told me I could work as long as I want, and I had no thoughts of retiring, but then in February came my diagnosis, and then COVID. Everything was thrown up in the air. Many of us were laid off mid March; the fate of the lab is still uncertain, since with schools being run as they are now (many online), business is down to about 30% of our regular production, and though some have been called back to work, it is still not full throttle, and I must admit, the timing for me could not have been better, especially in light of my increased need for sleep, and sporadic schedule. Parking at the hospitals is free now due to COVID, and pharmacies do free deliveries now too for the same reason. These are indeed very small perks in such troubling times, though I feel quite removed from the chaos and confusion the world has descended into with conspiracy theories abounding and all the upset going on south of the border with allegations of massive voter fraud. The corruption of the world seems to grow in leaps and bounds. I am reminded of the saying: for every mile of road, there are two miles of ditch. So many seem to be walking the ditches. I prefer the view from the middle of the road At least I hope I am not in a ditch I have mostly found you to always have a very positive and upbeat attitude, along with a wonderful sense of humor. Hopefully you will soon adjust the great changes of environment that have come with your move, and you will come to appreciate the peace and quiet and general lack of congestion

 

[tourist]

So if you did pick another type of work, what would it be Tourist??

I would love to work in a manufacturing environment making widgets or whatever it is that is made. I love making stuff and have spent many years in manufacturing in various positions and capacities. That was a long time ago though. Since 2005 I have had to settle for more menial type of work. It has been a steady decline but for the last 4 or 5 years it was starting to turn in a more positive direction. Today I feel burnt out and have seen better days in the workplace. By the grace of God I intend to make a comeback. It's going to be textbook. I am going to ask God to re-invent me and polish my brand for there is still work to accomplish which the Father has prepared for me beforehand.

 

[Ruby123]

We have moved to a little city called Jamestown, Tennessee which is in the northeast part of the state about 90 minutes from Knoxville. It is about 700 miles from Clearwater, Florida where we used to live in the Tampa / St. Petersburg / Clearwater metropolitan area.

Went from a population of 3,500,000 to 2000. It is an extreme change to what I am accustomed too. It's cold here too. Snow flurries yesterday. Florida is a 24/7/365 world, here things shut down when the sun sets. Strange as it may seem I miss the traffic congestion, non-stop police sirens and the occasional distant sounds of gunshots in the wee hours of the night. I am living in a strange new world.

I have done the opposite. I have moved from a small country town into the big city. So there is road rage, volumes of people, shops galore (I like that part) and people everywhere. I'm loving it but it is quite noisy. Fortunately no gun shots here, that is just yet anyway.

 

[Magenta]

I used to work with a really nice guy who had this condition where after he ate he would almost always fall dead asleep within five or so minutes. So he was only able to eat once a day at night when he came home from work. He couldn't have breakfast or lunch otherwise he would fall asleep on the job. Terrible really.
I pray that the osteo will not have a negative effect on your health Magenta.

Thank you, Ruby I had an uncle like that

 

[tourist]

Leaving work in a body bag I get it My boss had told me I could work as long as I want, and I had no thoughts of retiring, but then in February came my diagnosis, and then COVID. Everything was thrown up in the air. Many of us were laid off mid March; the fate of the lab is still uncertain, since with schools being run as they are now (many online), business is down to about 30% of our regular production, and though some have been called back to work, it is still not full throttle, and I must admit, the timing for me could not have been better, especially in light of my increased need for sleep, and sporadic schedule. Parking at the hospitals is free now due to COVID, and pharmacies do free deliveries now too for the same reason. These are indeed very small perks in such troubling times, though I feel quite removed from the chaos and confusion the world has descended into with conspiracy theories abounding and all the upset going on south of the border with allegations of massive voter fraud. The corruption of the world seems to grow in leaps and bounds. I am reminded of the saying: for every mile of road, there are two miles of ditch. So many seem to be walking the ditches. I prefer the view from the middle of the road At least I hope I am not in a ditch I have mostly found you to always have a very positive and upbeat attitude, along with a wonderful sense of humor. Hopefully you will soon adjust the great changes of environment that have come with your move, and you will come to appreciate the peace and quiet and general lack of congestion

I place a high premium in peace and quiet and a general lack of congestion in things that don't belong and hinder my walk with the Lord. Truthfully, like yourself, I probably was in need of a period of down-time to decompress and unwind. My wife and I pray for you often in these trying times. Your life is a classic study of patience and perseverance that is worth emulating and I am a better person for having known you.

 

[tourist]

Fortunately no gun shots here, that is just yet anyway.

That's a good sign.

 

[Magenta]

I place a high premium in peace and quiet and a general lack of congestion in things that don't belong and hinder my walk with the Lord. Truthfully, like yourself, I probably was in need of a period of down-time to decompress and unwind. My wife and I pray for you often in these trying times. Your life is a classic study of patience and perseverance that is worth emulating and I am a better person for having known you.

Thank you, Jerry. As always you are very sweet in your expressions of appreciation. You are a very good role model

 

[Born_Again]

Let's see... hmm.. well I have terrible anxiety and its been worse this year, but I usually hide it.. lol confession out!

 

[Ruby123]

I confess I watched blind dates tonight which leaves me both cringing and laughing. The things people say, those awkward moments lol.
Tonight I had to laugh when girl said that her longest relationship was three months. Guys reaction was to stop eating and not know what to say. The only thing that came out of his mouth was "was it all them"

 

[tourist]

Let's see... hmm.. well I have terrible anxiety and its been worse this year, but I usually hide it.. lol confession out!

I suffer from self-inflicted anxiety issues too.