Welcome to the site. Though not a complete substitute for physical assembly, CC is a pretty good resource to fill in extra gaps.
The only downside is that this is the internet and people are less trusting because there isn't a person to person connection but discernment is still required in person...it's just slightly different.
Anyway, reach out. There are lots of helpful people here to assist you in whatever direction you'd like to go.
and bear in mind that forums are something like a water cooler. Sometimes things are said in that bubble that aren't meant unilaterally but people get carried away in their flesh at times (me included)
Peace be with you in your search for fellowship. Maybe you'll find what you are looking for here