I was stressed out from a certain time when I was 5 until a certain time when I was 19 after I took the make up off of my face when I was 13 the skin on my face felt different to where I didn't like how the skin felt on my face after I took the make up off of my face I felt run down I felt like I was dying like I was already gone I always feel run down I always feel like I am dying like I am already gone
Greetings Natalieg!
This is a sore subject with me, as I have had two people I know commit suicide, both of them non-believers. We are all living in trying times, but the fact is that once our bodies die, our spirits depart from the body and are very much conscious and aware (see the rich man and Lazarus in Luke 16:19-31).
Most people who do not believe in Christ, are under the impression that at the time of death they just cease to exist. However, the word of God does not support this. When a believer in Christ dies, their spirit departs from the body and goes to be in the presence of the Lord (2 Corinthians 5:6-8, Philippians 1:21-21) . When the unbeliever dies, their spirit departs and ends up in Hades where their spirit is conscious and aware and in torment in flame. For those who are not in Christ and who take their own lives, all that they are doing is expediting the commencement of their punishment.
Now for those who are believers in Christ, I have no scripture regarding suicide, but I would not want to take the chance and find out. As believers in Christ, we are to be prepared to be persecuted and even be put to death for the testimony of Jesus and the word of God. Everything and anything else is less.
I, as well as those who are reading this, will pray that Holy Spirit would comfort you and strengthen you in your faith and give you a calm spirit. You can always talk with me or anyone here if you are in need or for fellowship. I pray that God will take the thought of suicide out of your spirit.