I think I know what you are afraid to say clearly. Instead of speak to God directly, you read the written words of those who do. It’s like you share in the victory of your favourite sports team without breaking a sweat. Not only are you worshipping the Bible as an idol, but you don’t even understand, nor care to understand what it says. Trying to get you to open your eyes to its truth is like explaining physics to a five year old. However the five year old will learn more because he isn’t delusional enough to think he’s teaching the lesson. Regardless, I’ve already wasted too much time with you. It’s just every time I see how lost you are in every post I feel maybe he just needs more information. Good luck. Clearly you aren’t asking for directions. You are in the wrong city and don’t even know you’re lost. Good luck.