Thank you for replying. I repent every day in the sense of asking for forgiveness but keep making the same mistakes all the time which proberbly makes my prayers worthless. I feel as though I have offended God and He has forsaken me. I don’t feel reborn if I’m honest which i know is a sign of been unsaved, I’m still the same person is was when I first came to the truth, maybe even worse. Please pray for me!
I have since I read your opening post.
My daughter found this exercise that is suppose to help with a sense of self worth and helps in gaining self confidence. I would have sent it to you in a private conversation but it appears you have to pay for a membership so as to communicate that way here.
She found the exercise just looking for, Louise Hay Mirror Work. She said there are videos about this too. It helped her tremendously when she was being bullied at school shortly after her mom and me separated.
I called her after I read your reply because I knew she had done some kind of self-help exercise back then but couldn't recall what its title was or where she found it. I was so impressed I gave it a shot later on.
Sometimes, what we feel about ourselves makes us think no one could possibly love that. Much less God. After all we know our own dirty little secrets better than anyone. And we know how we feel about ourselves. Our sense of who we are affects everything about our life.
I think you should know too and likely do but maybe forgot? God knows you inside and out. He made you. And you are made, as are all things, as a resemblance of God because everything is from God its creator.
Making the same mistakes doesn't mean your prayers are worthless. You're talking to God. That isn't worthless that's worth while.
I use to do the same thing in making mistakes. Different day same sort of mistake only not exactly so. Then I started to pay attention to that pattern.
This may help you. I hope so because it worked for me.
I paid attention to the pattern of mistakes by paying attention to what I was doing that ended up being a mistake. When I found myself repeating that same thing with near the same result, I started to ask myself what is it I'm not seeing? What am I suppose to learn not to do here?
Because that's what we end up calling our mistake, right? If not, that's OK too. I was repeating the same behavior and expecting a different outcome. Which was ridiculous. But it wasn't precisely the same behavior. It was a behavior that had a starting point in my thought about how to do something. And then I built on that with my own actions trying to make that thought into a reality. If that makes sense to you.
Busted by backside every time. Then hard head here got the point. Next time, when that starting point opportunity showed up again, I remembered exactly what my prior steps had been that led to failure and feeling like crap. And I did something totally different. Something that turns out was totally against my nature. Which is where I think we get into trouble and is what is behind what you call, repeating the same mistakes. Our nature tells us we got this. Even when the outcome says, not even close pal!
My daughter keeps a journal. She got that from my wife who does the same thing. I've never been big into diary's myself but I've seen how it helps them. Me, I just keep things cataloged in my head. But for them it helps to keep a record of their thoughts and whatnot. That way they can keep track of their progress or realize where they need more work on any given issue or thing in life.
Maybe that will work for you. Maybe it can be a sort of letter to God too. Write down what you're feeling, what you feel failed at. Maybe see if you're not led to write your own answer that isn't maybe even your thoughts but is God answering that prayer in that way right there in the journal.
Some people call that automatic writing. It has a bad reputation due to people thinking bad things about that. However, who's to say how God works? Maybe when we pray and then start writing things down , even if they're addressed to