Lastly, when I reviewed her photo again, she reminded me of some transsexual. I look at a series of photos that help me understand the reality of women, including transsexuals. And I definitely do not want to treat a transsexual as a sexual object! So again, I refrained from intimately or sexually interpreting her photo and response.
I've taken measures to make sure recipients don't send photos anymore, or at least such recipients would be marked so that I ignore their responses. This is the internet, and prostitution businesses are quick to sexually exploit weak men because there's little moderation but a lot of potential profit.
Usually I keep a pretty open mind about things but it appears from your post that you at least spend some time looking at pictures of people in order to "desexualize them" pictures that objectify women...you proceed to "use" toward this purpose? Do you not see how that's somewhat warped?
Sounds the same as falling prey to a sexualized image on purpose. You are "using" these pictures and treating them as objects.
First you view this woman as provocative, then you disassociate yourself from that fact and as a work around you essentially "force" a belief on yourself that this woman is a lesbian "seeing clearly"...but then I guess that doesn't work so you "force" her to line up with being transexual in need of help. So you have done nothing but only consider this woman's sexuality as far as I can tell..."knowing" that she clearly needs help because she may have been indiscreet with her cleavage which you cannot prove was intentional or not.
Maybe you are still reading...but not every female is aware of their effect on men. There are some that grow up showing cleavage and it doesn't particularly "do anything" for most of the men as a lot of them are desensitized to this. The intentionally lustful images that are portrayed in media awaken "drives" in early teens and possibly late teens but it's pretty uncommon for your average male. They see it all the time and it's culturally acceptable.
How do you know it wasn't an honest mistake? Certainly a person can have a discussion about modesty.
If it were legitimately an attack, I feel ya man and I've had stuff like that occur in my life as well...although it could have been coincidence that I was involved, there are definitely some women out there that do intentionally do things like that and I've experienced that first hand. It is disturbing for sure.
Just consider how you are "using" an image. Regardless of what you are using it for, it still applies to sexuality. Do you know how we make a covenant with our eyes? Don't look and not only that but this is only part of the battle, learn to redirect the energy toward something productive. Sure there are some "hot moments" where it seems incredibly hard and I've definitely had my share of defeats without question but force disassociation and reprogramming through such tactics is ill-advised. Get off the internet, seek some solitude in nature. If it's that big of a personal issue this shouldn't be that big of a step. I've done it...lived outside for long periods without the internet in order to work through things. The biofeedback occurs in dreams, but it's just another battle to pray through.
I'm pretty hardcore in how I view purity and have been militant about it as well...the results haven't been spectacular trying to do it "my way".
Are you looking for encouragement by posting here? What's your motivation for including others in such a pursuit which is akin to asceticism? I'm certainly all for rising above the flesh but you don't do that in your own power and strength or you will inevitably fail, and I find it hard to believe the Lord is leading you through in this fashion.
It would help to at least post your goals on what you are trying to accomplish. Brute force disconnection from a natural process must have some sort of aim. If it's purity, more power to ya (just don't go overboard). If it's essentially exalting yourself against the creator and saying that his system is wicked regardless of whether you are in Christ or not, then we have some problems. Read through Genesis...there's quite a bit to learn about purity there, what to do and what not to do.
I probably won't spend any more time responding unless you are interested in discussion not treating this like a personal blog on a public forum. I understand that the state of the sexual affairs in the world today can be traumatic (it's a lifelong struggle for me) but eventually your drive begins to diminish and it becomes a bit more balanced and easier to handle it seems. There's battle enough propounding a Godly standard for marriage in today's world and how to navigate the pitfalls surrounding us in a way that honors him.