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Hi all,
I don't know how to properly start this introduction about myself.
I want to start by telling the bitter truth right away: I am not saved (yet). And I feel extremely ashamed of that. I am struggling with putting all my trust in the Lord. I find it extremely scary to share this with all of you because I see that so many (or all) people are saved here. I hope you won't judge me.
I am born and raised in a christian home (where I still happily live ).I see that as a blessing. But all I saw was just religion without faith. There were loads of strict rules, but we never talk(ed) about personal faith. Jesus was never mentioned at home. I have been going to the same church my whole life. But the community is there quite closed. People barely talk about their own faith and stuff.
Therefore I didn't learn how to openly speak about my own struggles and faith (I don't use this as an excuse). I want to learn that more and more, because I know that that's very important to grow in faith too.
A few years ago I started to listen to other preachers etc. A whole new world opened for me, because I heard for the first time the gospel. But it also confused and still confuses me a lot, because of what I have heard my whole life at church, namely that 'you can't get saved very easily'. And I struggle with that a lot. That is a bit of my background story.
It became a longer story than I planned I hope to learn a lot from you guys and I hope that you are willing to not judge me but to pray for me and to help me grow in my faith.
I don't know how to properly start this introduction about myself.
I want to start by telling the bitter truth right away: I am not saved (yet). And I feel extremely ashamed of that. I am struggling with putting all my trust in the Lord. I find it extremely scary to share this with all of you because I see that so many (or all) people are saved here. I hope you won't judge me.
I am born and raised in a christian home (where I still happily live ).I see that as a blessing. But all I saw was just religion without faith. There were loads of strict rules, but we never talk(ed) about personal faith. Jesus was never mentioned at home. I have been going to the same church my whole life. But the community is there quite closed. People barely talk about their own faith and stuff.
Therefore I didn't learn how to openly speak about my own struggles and faith (I don't use this as an excuse). I want to learn that more and more, because I know that that's very important to grow in faith too.
A few years ago I started to listen to other preachers etc. A whole new world opened for me, because I heard for the first time the gospel. But it also confused and still confuses me a lot, because of what I have heard my whole life at church, namely that 'you can't get saved very easily'. And I struggle with that a lot. That is a bit of my background story.
It became a longer story than I planned I hope to learn a lot from you guys and I hope that you are willing to not judge me but to pray for me and to help me grow in my faith.
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