YES! I want to be your friend, Geophery. JESUS makes me feel that way. God loves you so much that He let Jesus, His only Son, die. It is good that we have weaknesses, fears, and needs. Pride is a terrible thing.
Proverbs 16
16:18 Pride [goeth] before destruction, and an haughty spirit before a fall.
16:19 Better [it is to be] of an humble spirit with the lowly, than to divide the spoil with the proud.
Sometimes we must travel dark valleys and sometimes we feel alone. It is not necessarily a bad thing, though. Often, it is in those times that we grow most. Trust God, let Him mold you as only He knows how.
Bless you, my friend and brother,
oyster67.