Hi paisleypanther, thank you so much for your very encouraging reply! You are right about trauma being one of the hardest things to overcome, especially when paired with sin. Shame is a difficult thing for me and an area where I can be weak toward the enemy so I find myself having to be careful the instant past sins spring to my mind - daily communion has been helping me with that. It certainly feels like incessant attack, so much so that I would have to be God himself to rebuke every single voice! So when I have run out of energy, I ask Jesus to do the rebuking for me and He knows my heart and knowledge of which scriptures I would use to counterattack
The "He will quiet you by His love" part of the Zephaniah verse brought a warmth and hope up for me, I would love nothing more than quietness and His stillness in my mind. I trust that will come as I keep striving for Christs light as you urged me to.
That couldn't be more true that the enemy is fighting back even harder now, as I've been going to church and getting deeper into the Word. Just last week after seeing a christian counsellor for the first time, I felt it was a sure step in the right direction. When I got back to the train station, I realised my bike was stolen and at that point my mind was plunged into chaos. Thankfully I called a prayerline during all that chaos and the lady who answered was very firm in stressing my standing firm on the word no matter how strong the attack. I was so upset about my bike but I got passed it and now have a new bike that I will guard with my life!
I will check out that daily devotional and bible apps, thank you for the suggestion. Yes the book of Psalms I am almost at the end of reading all of them for the second time this year, they are the book I identify most with in the Bible and especially David's psalms.
Thanks for the music suggestions, I have already gone through a few on the list and will get round to the rest soon. I loved "Hold Me Near" by Enter the Worship Circle so I will definitely be checking out more of their stuff on YouTube!
I will surely still keep seeking therapy, it is an important road for me to go down as I've found in my life that I don't receive the level of commitment and consistency I need anywhere outside of a therapeutic relationship. I worked with a christian therapist for over 8 years until May 2014 and healed; I never experienced such burning joy in my heart and gut as I did toward the end and some months after that therapy. Now it seems that healing has been stolen and taking it back it apart of the spiritual battle I am in.
Thank you for your prayers, I really appreciate them and your response.
The "He will quiet you by His love" part of the Zephaniah verse brought a warmth and hope up for me, I would love nothing more than quietness and His stillness in my mind. I trust that will come as I keep striving for Christs light as you urged me to.
That couldn't be more true that the enemy is fighting back even harder now, as I've been going to church and getting deeper into the Word. Just last week after seeing a christian counsellor for the first time, I felt it was a sure step in the right direction. When I got back to the train station, I realised my bike was stolen and at that point my mind was plunged into chaos. Thankfully I called a prayerline during all that chaos and the lady who answered was very firm in stressing my standing firm on the word no matter how strong the attack. I was so upset about my bike but I got passed it and now have a new bike that I will guard with my life!
I will check out that daily devotional and bible apps, thank you for the suggestion. Yes the book of Psalms I am almost at the end of reading all of them for the second time this year, they are the book I identify most with in the Bible and especially David's psalms.
Thanks for the music suggestions, I have already gone through a few on the list and will get round to the rest soon. I loved "Hold Me Near" by Enter the Worship Circle so I will definitely be checking out more of their stuff on YouTube!
I will surely still keep seeking therapy, it is an important road for me to go down as I've found in my life that I don't receive the level of commitment and consistency I need anywhere outside of a therapeutic relationship. I worked with a christian therapist for over 8 years until May 2014 and healed; I never experienced such burning joy in my heart and gut as I did toward the end and some months after that therapy. Now it seems that healing has been stolen and taking it back it apart of the spiritual battle I am in.
Thank you for your prayers, I really appreciate them and your response.
