Yes, she had a bad childhood also.. My 2 older sisters (they claim) were physically abused by her growing up. I'm the baby of the family, so by the time I was old enough to realize I had a brother and sisters, they were all grown up and out of the house. Mom's treatment of ME wasn't physical, but it WAS emotional and mental abuse. I am trying to just remember that she had a bad childhood, just as we did, and that is why she and my oldest sister are so nasty and bitter..
Honestly, with my sister, I think she just hates herself, the world and everyone in it. She has told me that I grew up pretty much an only child, and had everything handed to me on a platter. And that's NOT true at all. I didn't have anything handed to me. Did I get more attention as a kid, than she and my other sister did? Yes, I did, because I was diagnosed with epilepsy at age 5, so my parents have helped me alot during my life. They let me live at home until I was 21, they found me my first apartment, they also took me to appointments and shopping and such.
I think my sister is envious, or bitter, because my parents did, and do, more for me than they did for her. She's lucky, she had a job all these years, she has a car, and a house she inherited when the guy who owned it died. I can't get a license because of my seizures. I have to take the bus wherever I need to go. More so now that mom and dad are elderly..
That they helped you and did all that for YOU tells me that there is love there even though they can't emote it or voice it, they show it in their actions. Emotional abuse is the worst to overcome. The scars are deeper. You have to decide what is stronger, you or the shadows that haunt you. Choose to love. No matter what you hear from your siblings or from your thoughts, you can choose to love. I know your limitations are a challenge but your greater challenge is this. Choose to love.
