Dear sister, quite the object leson here, babes in Chriat are still under the anastetic of living after the flesh that is dead. Many will never wake up and "Be saved through fire and loose their reward." These dont have part in the first Resurrection.
Anyway Im nor here trying to help God, I know I cant and babes will be babes until they at least understand the Grace of God as sufiscient to percevere "My Grace is sufiscient for you, for My strengh is made perdect in your weakness." Are you aware that half the Christians interpret this as a mesage of defeat; not understanding that it ment that drawing on sufiscient Grace, it would multipy in strengt always sufiscient for our need, to make us perfect through suffering with Christ: to cease from sin and overcome the world the flesh and the enemy. I am experiencing this in part, nor an overcomer, as explained earlier, like this woman who received the crown in her dream. if you want to know what that looks like look it up. She is permitted to share this, her experience Like Paul.