I'm someone who is very creative and expressive. I need to express myself freely for this is my true essence. I am a beautiful frequency of life and inspiration. So I'm wondering how can I creative an out let for myself & how to fight this depression and emptyness that I feel. I write and I freely write and I create beautiful melodies of words and poems but I need something new, something to make me come alive and feel alive..
I do this often, express my thoughts and pour it down π€·π I'm a wonder ball of hopes can't help it, God gifted me but I want to use my gifts in every art form there is.. Hmm...
Inspiration is the heart of all my wonders.
Thanks God. β€π
Praise God for His leadings. As a child, i just would sing, play music, draw, and sometimes write. I did not dwell much of those, however, just did them. By high school and college, i still did but they were always on the wayside, as i thought i should be pursuing scientific (and real) stuff as my parents and most sibs have done. In time i realized the gifts were from the Lord, and no need denying them. I have stopped drawing for many yrs, but abt 5? yrs ago, i tried to draw something again, and thought, Why, i can still draw! I only painted or used colors for a little time, but when i did recently, something i thot so hard--i see it can be done!
There was a chance to play (an inexpensive) violin, and suddenly i see i could learn it too, w/o a teacher. But i prefer to have one to show how to do it better (techniques), and i need a better violin too to sound better hehe. As i mentioned in another thread just now, i also like to read God's word aloud, wc i cannot always do now. But doing so reminds me of one grade school recording a play at the local radio station. I can still sing one song we did then! At times i felt guilty not doing what others expected of me (even my husband). Then i just offered what i could do to the Lord and hope in His time, that in all my labor (of love, even while learning to play a musical instrument), there'd be profit!
Something i'm learning abt being creative... it's good to have 'outlets,' but it's better when we can share these w/ others (as in a greeting card, a song or poem offering in church or w/ ppl who also appreciate it, etc.).