There are times when one gets, or becomes confused, as to who, or what is doing the attacking!
This may sound a bit "cliche", but, letting go, and letting God lead you, may be the best advice one could give to another.
Ask God, which way He wants ya to go!
You well may be trying to overcome something in your mind, heart, soul, spirit, flesh, life, that God knows you are in danger of losing yourself over. Something like bringing a knife to a gunfight! Sure! You'll get a lick or 2 in! But, you're gonna lose! And, you don't want that for you! And, God don't want that for His child either!
Isaiah 28
9 Whom shall he teach knowledge? and whom shall he make to understand doctrine? them that are weaned from the milk, and drawn from the breasts.
10 For precept must be upon precept, precept upon precept; line upon line, line upon line; here a little, and there a little:
IOW? You're biting off more then you can chew!