Things have been getting worse and worse...
Outside Christ and the church, there really is nothing at all in the world that brings long lasting joy or happiness... there's nothing that the world can offer that is better than what Jesus alone offers. There's nothing that you can substitute for his love, mercy, joy, and so on. My faith and belief is struggling, i want to read scripture more again, but i don't..
It's like, the more you stray away.. the more you fall away, the more empty and depressed you get, no matter what you do to fill that in. i keep praying almost the same things everyday, give thanks and end the day with prayer. To the point where, it's not heart felt anymore, and i think because of that, sin and iniquity becomes more and more apparent.. i gotten myself into another habitual cycle of sin, and a dangerous one at that.
I call out to him for help but it's like, there's no answer.
i feel separated from him.
knowing and being aware of this, living day after day, same thing everyday.
it's almost.. miserable..
No matter how comfortable it gets, it's miserable regardless when you're aware of it.
Outside Christ and the church, there really is nothing at all in the world that brings long lasting joy or happiness... there's nothing that the world can offer that is better than what Jesus alone offers. There's nothing that you can substitute for his love, mercy, joy, and so on. My faith and belief is struggling, i want to read scripture more again, but i don't..
It's like, the more you stray away.. the more you fall away, the more empty and depressed you get, no matter what you do to fill that in. i keep praying almost the same things everyday, give thanks and end the day with prayer. To the point where, it's not heart felt anymore, and i think because of that, sin and iniquity becomes more and more apparent.. i gotten myself into another habitual cycle of sin, and a dangerous one at that.
I call out to him for help but it's like, there's no answer.
i feel separated from him.
knowing and being aware of this, living day after day, same thing everyday.
it's almost.. miserable..
No matter how comfortable it gets, it's miserable regardless when you're aware of it.
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