I am not claiming that you are lost eternally. When we, as children of God, sin, we lose our relationship with God until we repent. We never lose our eternal salvation.
We never lose our relationship with the Father. We are His son.
None of this fazes us because Jesus loves us. I’m absolutely convinced that nothing—nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable—absolutely
nothing can get between us and God’s love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us.(Romans 8:38-39)
And He corrects us when we sin, but never do we lose relationship with Him my friend.
4-11 In this all-out match against sin, others have suffered far worse than you, to say nothing of what Jesus went through—all that bloodshed! So don’t feel sorry for yourselves. Or have you forgotten how good parents treat children, and that God regards you as
his children?
My dear child, don’t shrug off God’s discipline,
but don’t be crushed by it either.
It’s the child he loves that he disciplines;
the child he embraces, he also corrects.
God is educating you; that’s why you must never drop out.
He’s treating you as dear children. This trouble you’re in isn’t punishment; it’s
training, the normal experience of children. Only irresponsible parents leave children to fend for themselves. Would you prefer an irresponsible God? We respect our own parents for training and not spoiling us, so why not embrace God’s training so we can truly
live? While we were children, our parents did what
seemed best to them. But God is doing what
is best for us, training us to live God’s holy best. At the time, discipline isn’t much fun. It always feels like it’s going against the grain. Later, of course, it pays off handsomely, for it’s the well-trained who find themselves mature in their relationship with God.(Hebrews 12)
Until you cease and desist conflating regeneration with progressive sanctification, you will just chase your tail over and over again my friend.