You've lasted because the modders here have patience, be quick to think slow to speak. fear I doubt is the issue for the flak.
I've had a lot of practice, and I've deal with many Christians that desire to tear me down, and we're talking a 20 years span of Christian wanting me to abandon my faith, and it has gave me a lot of practice how to deal with Christians that are abusive to the godly, and the true believers.
I've casted over 50 demon from the God it was God he helped me, and I am nothing without God, and I've seen Christians that didn't like that, and want me to stop when there own Bible clearlys says to cast out demon.
Matthew 10:8
Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse those who have leprosy, drive out demons. Freely you have received; freely give.
This is just to tell you how much hypocrissy that are among us, and I do not know why even if you show them a verse they will still act proud, and still ask you to stop.
Sociopaths, narcissism, and psychopathy are a sign of pharisees some cannot say they are ever wrong, and some will trust their feelings, and say they cannot be wrong, and some are mean, and will go against your wish just because they are a psychopathy, and that helped me a lot to understand, and learn about many Christians.