I am not trying to speak for HP, but what i see is a person seeking to have a connection with another person, while also struggling with an issue that can only be satisfied by first finding that connection. And since that connection isn't coming easy for her, neither is her other struggle able to be resolved. This fantasy you've crafted of her desiring some custom, made to order, husband falls deeply into the bounds of ridiculous.
She seems to be desiring what most people want, what entire businesses and web sites dedicate themselves to help people find. Love and connection. But since she has problems out of her control that affect her ability to function easily in such ways it only increases her frustration.
While i do not agree with her on all things she's said in this thread, i do agree that she's right in knowing herself well enough to know what she needs in a man. It's actually rather wise of her and has nothing to do with expecting this miraculous man being formed especially for her. If only more people had such insight into themselves, and the ability to admit it and own it, we may see less failed marriages.
Wow, you actually took the time to think about what I meant in these posts. Thank you.
I've been told God is probably protecting me since I've never dated, protecting me from getting my heart broken. I don't want to be protected. I'm not a baby anymore. And I'm sick of everyone treating me like their ward. As for never getting my heart broken, I say, "Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all."
And I'm sick of trying to see any benefits of having Aspergers. All I see is that it's made me unable to have even the simplest emotional connections with people. All it's done is make me lonely, isolated, frustrated, and freakish. I feel like I'm wasting my young years by trying to be happy and fighting depression and loneliness, years I will never get back.
I honestly would rather have cancer than Aspergers. At least with cancer people see and care about the pain you're in. But loneliness? You're on your own. I'm busy with my own life. Who cares if loneliness has the same effect on the body as smoking 15 cigarettes a day? Who cares if it affects your health? I've got my own life to live. I'm much too important to take any time to help you carry your burden as Christians are supposed to do.
Both my Aspergers and my sex drive are just crosses and burdens.