I know by experience the exact same sentiments, but:
Read:
Eph_5:14 Wherefore he saith, Awake thou that sleepest, and arise from the dead, and Christ shall give thee
light.
Joh 1:4 In him was life; and
the life was the light of men.
Purpose and true success (being the Christian life) comes in true ministry for the salvation, uplifting, edification, healing and service of others.
There are physical, as well as spiritual sicknesses, which can stem from satan, sin and selfishness.
Mar 1:30 But Simon's wife's mother lay sick of a fever, and anon they tell him of her.
Mar 1:31 And
he came and took her by the hand, and lifted her up; and immediately the fever left her, and she ministered unto them.
Think of the natural fever and delerium, but look at a spiritual application, now (1 Corinthians 15:46).
Christ Jesus wants (wills) you to be whole:
Joh_10:10 The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy:
I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.
Notice, as soon as Peter's mother in law was healed, what did she do? Therein is the Gospel and the way to the abundant life.
Are you now willing to "get up", to act upon His word to you?
Bring joy (Jude 1:24) to others, publish the gospel of peace in your life, be the written epistle of Christ Jesus seen and known and read of all men, of the Gospel in your life.
Cease from doubt, and take up faith.
Isa 49:15 Can a woman forget her sucking child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb? yea, they may forget, yet will I not forget thee.
Isa 49:16 Behold, I have graven thee upon the palms of my hands; thy walls are continually before me.
You. You are graven upon the palms of Jesus' hands.
He had his side opened and pierced to the heart, that you might hide in the cleft of "the Rock" and cover you there, with His hand. You can see His glory through it:
Hab_3:4 And his brightness was as the light; he had horns coming out of his hand: and there was the hiding of his power.
You say, 'I don't feel it ...'
Correct. Feeling is not faith, and feeling can be (not always) deceptive. Read God's word and act upon what He says, not how you feel. This will bring strength, vitality, and life to you. The feeling will come also, but do not trust in it. Trust in God's word, for it is truth, and God cannot lie, and promised, two immutable things.
If you begin to believe, or say, "Lord, help mine unbelief, and forgive my doubting heart"
Do you believe that Jesus is able to give you a clean heart and renew a right spirit with in you, even now?
Therefore, In the name of Jesus Christ, be healed of your spiritual depression. Get up. Go outside for a walk, think upon His words to you. Think upon the Father's love for you, that He gave His only begotten son. You are of more
value than "many sparrows". Would Christ Jesus pay such a price, would God, for something of no value? No. You are of incalculable price. Most precious in the sight of your Father in Heaven.
You may enjoy listening to How to
come to Christ
Consider listening to these three chapters:
[1]
Chapter 74
[2]
Chapter 78
[3]
Chapter 79
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