Well, as I mentioned before, I did not fill my head with only secular literature. It was a big struggle for me to realize that if I was being honest, I needed to look into all of this from a disinterested approach. I am an engineer by trade, and I've learned that you don't get anywhere by just hoping you are right. You must first understand how something works in order to actually know what you are talking about.
I probably read more Christian books than secular books. The funny thing about the Christian authors is that they assume a lot of things, and they definitely are not disinterested when it comes to finding objectivity within what we have come to know as Christianity.
You are right, No one but myself can know whether I "truly" knew God. The irony is that I am only claiming to not know God now based on what I've unlearned. You are the ones that claim to know with objectivity who God is, while many of you at the same time admit that God is far beyond our understanding.
I don't think your attitude stinks, I don't blame you for getting frustrated with me. All I ask is to have an intelligent conversation with someone that has looked into these "secular" views, acknowledges them, and still remains a christian. That's what I am hoping for.