I think im seriously ruined forever. Nowordscansay enough. Imstuckhamstrungbraindeademptydriedupdestroyed. Ravaged. below rock bottom no tiny glimpse of light i thinkimfreakin demolished. Seriously. Nojoke. INEEDHELP.SOS.SOS. N the darkest place. Extremely isolated lonely broke in dire financial straits im a total wreck and yes I have screwed myself up badly all the addiction lonely habits selfmedicating the pillsabusingthem feeding myself with poison im not thinking straight mybrainisdeformed there’s something seriously wrong i am praying praying praying but i know im a sickness the poisons are festering clogging me up i keep crawling deeper nto thick darkness idontknowhowto save myself i want to do the right thing but i keep screwing up im such a severe wreck every which way critical condition i honestly need help God God God i cant do this alone what do i need to do can i ever get better please please Lordhelpme ineedyou right now
Baby steps little by little back to the light.
1) Go see a doctor, write out all of the above and show it to them.
2) Ask if they can devise a plan with you to help you climb out of this.
3) Stop self medicating, lots of meds interact and have side effects which make
things worse.
4) Find one thing every day to be thankful for and write it down, it can be
hard to do when you are low, but do it through gritted teeth if you have to.
5) Try a little exercise every day even if just 10 mins. Exercise produces endorphines
which help.
6) Remember that you are not thinking straight right now but you can pray and
trust God.
Lord we pray for D that you will wrap your loving arms around him. Free him from
the chains of despair Lord. Calm his mind, and bring people into his life who can
help. If he is doing things the wrong way, I pray you will show him a better way.
Where there is a need for healing I pray Lord you will work that out for him.
Give him wisdom and break down this negativity in his life. Show him you are his
strong tower and safe place.
Hi don’t know why but I keep getting an image of a tower like a castle tower
with turrets.
The thing about a strong tower, it keeps things out but also stops things from
getting in. You are keeping God out and letting the wrong things in. It’s time
to do this the other way around. Sorry if that seems strange it’s just what I
got. It’s time to open wide the gates to Jesus and he will be your strong tower.
Proverbs 18:10 NLT
[10] The name of the LORD is a strong fortress; the godly run to him and are safe.